take me away to a place where i'm happy
you know what i just realized?
that long distance relationships are just foolish and unrealistic.
well at my age at least and in particular situations such as this one.
i guess i didn't just realize it, but i knew it already.
i mean. yeah okay you fall in love with a person and then they move away.
great for you and then bad for you. and then you try to make it work.
but starting one with a person that lives 30+ minutes away is just foolish.
especially when you have other things in your life to worry about.
the first one was sort of a disaster and the second "attempt" was even moreso.
so. i'm pretty much all done with that for right now.
cause it is just unrealistic and just a lost hope.
if anyone asked me for advice on the topic, i'd say "no. don't bother."
i'm not being cynical i think. just frank and level-headed.
i just went to put gas in my car for the first time.
it was sort of a big deal.
then i went to the house that smells like nilla wafers.
you know, that house.
i'm procrastinating reading the bedford reader.
but it's alright cause it's all i have left to do.
i'm grateful that i did all the other things earlier.
yesterday i got a haircut and fitted for my tux.
"He said he was going to do my inseam, and he ran his hand up my leg, and then, there was definite--"
"what?"
"Cupping."
haha
oh, and in other news.
i've been thinking a lot about that thing.
that one. the one that came up about, oh late february.
i think about it alot i guess.
sometimes one part of me says yes but then another part slaps me in the face.
i mean, i wouldn't mind it if i did do it. or would i?
i don't know. it's confusing.
and right now i'm just sort of thinking out loud.
i mean, i don't think he even knows. maybe.
no, no. he must cause people have told me so.
i think i might. but when and how and what would happen?
it is kinda what i want. but it would be weird.
numerous people have told me there is nothing wrong with doing it.
arrgh. this is racking my brain so much.
maybe i should go think some more.
ps. sonia is a silly bitch.
why?
cause she just is.
cause stone cold said so.
cause it feels so nice just to drive and drive and drive.
that long distance relationships are just foolish and unrealistic.
well at my age at least and in particular situations such as this one.
i guess i didn't just realize it, but i knew it already.
i mean. yeah okay you fall in love with a person and then they move away.
great for you and then bad for you. and then you try to make it work.
but starting one with a person that lives 30+ minutes away is just foolish.
especially when you have other things in your life to worry about.
the first one was sort of a disaster and the second "attempt" was even moreso.
so. i'm pretty much all done with that for right now.
cause it is just unrealistic and just a lost hope.
if anyone asked me for advice on the topic, i'd say "no. don't bother."
i'm not being cynical i think. just frank and level-headed.
i just went to put gas in my car for the first time.
it was sort of a big deal.
then i went to the house that smells like nilla wafers.
you know, that house.
i'm procrastinating reading the bedford reader.
but it's alright cause it's all i have left to do.
i'm grateful that i did all the other things earlier.
yesterday i got a haircut and fitted for my tux.
"He said he was going to do my inseam, and he ran his hand up my leg, and then, there was definite--"
"what?"
"Cupping."
haha
oh, and in other news.
i've been thinking a lot about that thing.
that one. the one that came up about, oh late february.
i think about it alot i guess.
sometimes one part of me says yes but then another part slaps me in the face.
i mean, i wouldn't mind it if i did do it. or would i?
i don't know. it's confusing.
and right now i'm just sort of thinking out loud.
i mean, i don't think he even knows. maybe.
no, no. he must cause people have told me so.
i think i might. but when and how and what would happen?
it is kinda what i want. but it would be weird.
numerous people have told me there is nothing wrong with doing it.
arrgh. this is racking my brain so much.
maybe i should go think some more.
ps. sonia is a silly bitch.
why?
cause she just is.
cause stone cold said so.
cause it feels so nice just to drive and drive and drive.