incomplete

[jason_felix]

what do you do when your heart desires so much?......im trapped....im trapped inside myself. im longing for so many things....i can't be released. why can i not find happiness?....not a day of my life goes by where i have been completely and utterly happy. i almost feel lonely. it is my feeling of incompletion that causes me not to be completely

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Re: hey

[anonymous]

hmmm...soo here is the deal, i'm not to sure if i am prepared to write what i wish i could....writing today has been alittle hard. my mind is very blank. so sorry in advance for anything that does not make sense. i am sorry to hear about you being so far away from your family...i could not imagine being away from mine. Life would just seem empty without them around. i hope everything at camp continues to go well. it is sad to hear about your mother having breast cancer. I have full understanding of how scary that must make you feel. My mom had breast cancer a few years ago, fortunately she got it taken care of. i am also in pain to hear about your parents splitting. i can also vouch for that situation, because my mother and my father split when i was a baby, and now my mother and my step father [who practically raised me] are getting a divorce as well. it is really sad because he is like a second father to me. i know God is working on that situation and preparing everyone for the transition.
i'm glad you have found a good girl...they are hard to come by [this being said- coming from a girl lol]
anyhow...moving right along to dreadlocks! That is pretty sweet i must admit. hopefully they look good on you, because they do not look good on everyone. my younger cousin just got some within the past few months...they look amazing on him. his brother used to have them too....they looked pretty sweet on him aswell. it was funny because when the oldest got his cut off, his mom saved them, and i guess- put them in a bag lol. a year later the family went to the mountains for a ski trip and his mom made him a ski hat with the dreadlocks sewed on....kinda like some medusa ski hat lol.

you said you have changed so much as a person, i really do hope it is a good change rather than a bad change. all i can say is keep pressing on no matter what. Your relationship with God is the most important thing you could ever posses. it is easy to get sidetracked, because satan will work against you, especially in your weakest areas. Dont let anything come in between you and the father...without him everything is meaningless. i pray you find him again. i know you will. i have stuggled quite a bit over the past few years, but i always end up finding my place again and growing stronger each time. right now i am setting aside every obsticle so that i may press forward to his great and mighty plan for my life. His dreams for me are 100 times greater than any dream i could ever fathom for myself. so in conclusion to this comment, "if it holds you back, throw it out because it is not worth it." that is my motivation statement, it keeps me in line lol, i hope it does the same for you.

i apprecaite this friendship Cokoraul,
-sabrina