incomplete

[jason_felix]

what do you do when your heart desires so much?......im trapped....im trapped inside myself. im longing for so many things....i can't be released. why can i not find happiness?....not a day of my life goes by where i have been completely and utterly happy. i almost feel lonely. it is my feeling of incompletion that causes me not to be completely

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Re: hey

[cokoraul]

ok..ive started a respose a few times now..but there has never been a good time..cuz ive always gotten inturupted...but this time is going to be good...:>
so, my life has been SO full of craziness...i worked at a camp this last summer..and now im an intern at that camp..its 5 hours away from my home town...so..yea..i really want to find GOd again...my church split up while ive been away, my mom got breast cancer, my parets split, i got a girlfriend..and that ended...yea..a LOT of crappy stuff..but i know that Gods working..and i feel gernealy very happy..im not down..but rather looking forward to what GOd has for me...ive changed so much as a person...good or bad? i dont know..i dont think its sinful to drink now..or to do alot of things that i once thought if i did...i would for sure be condemmed for...but i seemed to have lost that connection i once had with God..im trying hard to find Him agian...cuz he's still the most important thing in my life...just reordering my prioitys and stuff like that...im here at the camp for a year..its a pretty sweet camp..ppl from all over the world come to work here...its pretty big..and jus in the last month..i found a girl that im dating rightnow...and i think shes pretty unreal...like amazing..waiting on God to see whats going to happen...i have so many ideas of how my life should go from here..but i know that GOd has a better one...so im really trying to figure out how i can become closer to him and find out who he wants me to be.
yea...in other news..i have DREADLOCKS!its crazy..ive had them for a month and im happy...but yea..i got to go....
so we'll talk more next time
with Holy Love
your friend from the otherside of the world
Cokoraul

Re: hey

[cokoraul]

hmmm...soo here is the deal, i'm not to sure if i am prepared to write what i wish i could....writing today has been alittle hard. my mind is very blank. so sorry in advance for anything that does not make sense. i am sorry to hear about you being so far away from your family...i could not imagine being away from mine. Life would just seem empty without them around. i hope everything at camp continues to go well. it is sad to hear about your mother having breast cancer. I have full understanding of how scary that must make you feel. My mom had breast cancer a few years ago, fortunately she got it taken care of. i am also in pain to hear about your parents splitting. i can also vouch for that situation, because my mother and my father split when i was a baby, and now my mother and my step father [who practically raised me] are getting a divorce as well. it is really sad because he is like a second father to me. i know God is working on that situation and preparing everyone for the transition.
i'm glad you have found a good girl...they are hard to come by [this being said- coming from a girl lol]
anyhow...moving right along to dreadlocks! That is pretty sweet i must admit. hopefully they look good on you, because they do not look good on everyone. my younger cousin just got some within the past few months...they look amazing on him. his brother used to have them too....they looked pretty sweet on him aswell. it was funny because when the oldest got his cut off, his mom saved them, and i guess- put them in a bag lol. a year later the family went to the mountains for a ski trip and his mom made him a ski hat with the dreadlocks sewed on....kinda like some medusa ski hat lol.

you said you have changed so much as a person, i really do hope it is a good change rather than a bad change. all i can say is keep pressing on no matter what. Your relationship with God is the most important thing you could ever posses. it is easy to get sidetracked, because satan will work against you, especially in your weakest areas. Dont let anything come in between you and the father...without him everything is meaningless. i pray you find him again. i know you will. i have stuggled quite a bit over the past few years, but i always end up finding my place again and growing stronger each time. right now i am setting aside every obsticle so that i may press forward to his great and mighty plan for my life. His dreams for me are 100 times greater than any dream i could ever fathom for myself. so in conclusion to this comment, "if it holds you back, throw it out because it is not worth it." that is my motivation statement, it keeps me in line lol, i hope it does the same for you.

i apprecaite this friendship Cokoraul,
-sabrina

Re: hey

[jason_felix]

hmmm...soo here is the deal, i'm not to sure if i am prepared to write what i wish i could....writing today has been alittle hard. my mind is very blank. so sorry in advance for anything that does not make sense. i am sorry to hear about you being so far away from your family...i could not imagine being away from mine. Life would just seem empty without them around. i hope everything at camp continues to go well. it is sad to hear about your mother having breast cancer. I have full understanding of how scary that must make you feel. My mom had breast cancer a few years ago, fortunately she got it taken care of. i am also in pain to hear about your parents splitting. i can also vouch for that situation, because my mother and my father split when i was a baby, and now my mother and my step father [who practically raised me] are getting a divorce as well. it is really sad because he is like a second father to me. i know God is working on that situation and preparing everyone for the transition.
i'm glad you have found a good girl...they are hard to come by [this being said- coming from a girl lol]
anyhow...moving right along to dreadlocks! That is pretty sweet i must admit. hopefully they look good on you, because they do not look good on everyone. my younger cousin just got some within the past few months...they look amazing on him. his brother used to have them too....they looked pretty sweet on him aswell. it was funny because when the oldest got his cut off, his mom saved them, and i guess- put them in a bag lol. a year later the family went to the mountains for a ski trip and his mom made him a ski hat with the dreadlocks sewed on....kinda like some medusa ski hat lol.

you said you have changed so much as a person, i really do hope it is a good change rather than a bad change. all i can say is keep pressing on no matter what. Your relationship with God is the most important thing you could ever posses. it is easy to get sidetracked, because satan will work against you, especially in your weakest areas. Dont let anything come in between you and the father...without him everything is meaningless. i pray you find him again. i know you will. i have stuggled quite a bit over the past few years, but i always end up finding my place again and growing stronger each time. right now i am setting aside every obsticle so that i may press forward to his great and mighty plan for my life. His dreams for me are 100 times greater than any dream i could ever fathom for myself. so in conclusion to this comment, "if it holds you back, throw it out because it is not worth it." that is my motivation statement, it keeps me in line lol, i hope it does the same for you.

i apprecaite this friendship Cokoraul,
-sabrina