Relationships...
9 months.
I wonder now if it was the right choice.
There has been some enjoyment, but now I am beginning to loath the time spent.
Avoiddance seems to be my primary drive. I've become lack in my self while active in my outward appearanced life.
That combination can't be good for one's being, right?
It's comforting being able to spend time with her, to be held and enjoy those feeling, however it seems to come with a price.
Should a relationship have a "price"?
It feels like I have to give up rather than give in order to receive in this relationship.
Perhaps it's time to move on. Early on, I had that feeling, but I fought it. Now I seem to be paying that price as well.
In walking away, back into the unknown, regret and uncertainty will undoubtedly come to fruition once again. This could lead me back. That would be a mistake.
Choices made are choices that have to be lived with from now until the end of eternity.
I just dunno.
-jbl
I wonder now if it was the right choice.
There has been some enjoyment, but now I am beginning to loath the time spent.
Avoiddance seems to be my primary drive. I've become lack in my self while active in my outward appearanced life.
That combination can't be good for one's being, right?
It's comforting being able to spend time with her, to be held and enjoy those feeling, however it seems to come with a price.
Should a relationship have a "price"?
It feels like I have to give up rather than give in order to receive in this relationship.
Perhaps it's time to move on. Early on, I had that feeling, but I fought it. Now I seem to be paying that price as well.
In walking away, back into the unknown, regret and uncertainty will undoubtedly come to fruition once again. This could lead me back. That would be a mistake.
Choices made are choices that have to be lived with from now until the end of eternity.
I just dunno.
-jbl