long time
I don't remember the last time I post. It has been a long time. I don't think much has really changed. I should complete my Master's in the next month, I have a current job that everyday I rise to go to it I become more unsatisfied, and I have a boyfriend in which everyday my love grows for.
I am not unsatisfied with life but find myself asking "whats next." Only a month ago I was thinking how wonderful it would be to be done. I had a love/hate relationship with my Masters and now that I am about to leave; I am realizing how much love was truly there. I am done with homework and classes and now all there is is research and I wish that this is what I could be for the rest of my life. Just a research assistant, not a professor, not a student... someone who works away everyday in the lab and field. I wish i could do just this and I would if I didn't have to make a living for myself. That is what always makes all decisions in life blurry is the $ that is attached to everything.
Now that I have tasted the drone life, it makes me want to stay in my academic shell and pretend the real world never existed in the first place.
Le sigh.... there are never answers only more questions.
I am not unsatisfied with life but find myself asking "whats next." Only a month ago I was thinking how wonderful it would be to be done. I had a love/hate relationship with my Masters and now that I am about to leave; I am realizing how much love was truly there. I am done with homework and classes and now all there is is research and I wish that this is what I could be for the rest of my life. Just a research assistant, not a professor, not a student... someone who works away everyday in the lab and field. I wish i could do just this and I would if I didn't have to make a living for myself. That is what always makes all decisions in life blurry is the $ that is attached to everything.
Now that I have tasted the drone life, it makes me want to stay in my academic shell and pretend the real world never existed in the first place.
Le sigh.... there are never answers only more questions.