What I've lost and what I've gained
I've had this journal since May 17th 2002. Back when you needed a friend to give you an activation code. Back when I still spent the weekend at my dad's, had bright pink hair, and wrote Gavitation fanfiction. I studied Business at Thornlie TAFE, we got food from the Salvation Army, and I had no friends.
Since then I've finished multiple courses at TAFE, started and changed several jobs, started and am continuing university, don't see my dad very often, and have more friends than sometimes I know what to do with!
I don't feel I'm that different a person from back in 2002. I have the same ideals and interests, but I'm better at handling challenges.
What I have lost though is all the friends I made along the way. People that shaped me to what I am today. From the person who gave me the activation code for this journal (who I don't speak to these days, but do read her entries about her exciting, jet-setting life), to the people I spent hours and hours talking to till the break of dawn and beyond, and the one person who shattered my heart. Now these people have moved on. They're studying to be doctor's, when I remember talking to them about their dreams to do so, or they're getting married, when I only remember talking to them about their terrible luck with relationships, or they have children now, when we used to laugh about how we would never be parents.
I may have lost those people, but in their place I've gained the most wonderful friends I could ever have. People that I can see, and hold, and be with. People I can stop in just to say hi, or we can arrange to meet each other during our lunch breaks and eat lunch together and lament about how poor our day has been.
I miss that I grew so apart from the people I "grew up" with, people that were with me through some of the hardest times. I don't regret it though. We grew apart because our lives were different, our goals different, our interests had changed. Now I share my life with some of the most special people in the world, and however it turns out, I'll never regret the time I spend with them either.
Since then I've finished multiple courses at TAFE, started and changed several jobs, started and am continuing university, don't see my dad very often, and have more friends than sometimes I know what to do with!
I don't feel I'm that different a person from back in 2002. I have the same ideals and interests, but I'm better at handling challenges.
What I have lost though is all the friends I made along the way. People that shaped me to what I am today. From the person who gave me the activation code for this journal (who I don't speak to these days, but do read her entries about her exciting, jet-setting life), to the people I spent hours and hours talking to till the break of dawn and beyond, and the one person who shattered my heart. Now these people have moved on. They're studying to be doctor's, when I remember talking to them about their dreams to do so, or they're getting married, when I only remember talking to them about their terrible luck with relationships, or they have children now, when we used to laugh about how we would never be parents.
I may have lost those people, but in their place I've gained the most wonderful friends I could ever have. People that I can see, and hold, and be with. People I can stop in just to say hi, or we can arrange to meet each other during our lunch breaks and eat lunch together and lament about how poor our day has been.
I miss that I grew so apart from the people I "grew up" with, people that were with me through some of the hardest times. I don't regret it though. We grew apart because our lives were different, our goals different, our interests had changed. Now I share my life with some of the most special people in the world, and however it turns out, I'll never regret the time I spend with them either.