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Well,
2 and a half weeks have passed since that awful Saturday... Just to clarify some things; I did not try to hurt myself because of a relationship gone wrong. I didn't do it because of any guy, no matter how important they were or were not to me, nor my (un)importance to them. This was all about me. This was because you can only take so much confusion, and aggravation, and self hate. You can only deal with so much guilt and insecurity before you think you're going mad. There's only so many choices you can make wrong before you want to blow your head off with a shot gun. There's a limit to everyting good and bad. I was tired of hurting- hurting me, hurting those around me, getting hurt by those same people... Everyone gets to the end of their rope- everyone has it in them to snap- just apparently my limit is a tad different than some of those around me. It's in my blood, right?
I got a letter from my aunt yesterday.. probably should NOT have read it. It really hurts to see all of your fears displayed in front of you, written by a woman gone MAD. How could she say all those awful things to me? Who knows...
2 and a half weeks have passed since that awful Saturday... Just to clarify some things; I did not try to hurt myself because of a relationship gone wrong. I didn't do it because of any guy, no matter how important they were or were not to me, nor my (un)importance to them. This was all about me. This was because you can only take so much confusion, and aggravation, and self hate. You can only deal with so much guilt and insecurity before you think you're going mad. There's only so many choices you can make wrong before you want to blow your head off with a shot gun. There's a limit to everyting good and bad. I was tired of hurting- hurting me, hurting those around me, getting hurt by those same people... Everyone gets to the end of their rope- everyone has it in them to snap- just apparently my limit is a tad different than some of those around me. It's in my blood, right?
I got a letter from my aunt yesterday.. probably should NOT have read it. It really hurts to see all of your fears displayed in front of you, written by a woman gone MAD. How could she say all those awful things to me? Who knows...