3 MONTHS SO FRESH AND SO CLEAN CLEAN
Well lately ive just been putting up things i've written like poems and freestyles: well i guess its not a freestyle if i write it down, but whatev.. lol But ya, i figured its time to update this thing for real.. The last reall update was AGES ago, i think around the time i got fired from Sigma- so we're going back a couple of years.. lets just say that since then its been one hell of a ride! I've worked at a few different places, lived in even more and now i've pretty much come full circle- i'm living back at my parents house 9hopefully for not too much longer) but its good because im slowly dragging myself out of debt- I'd like to be able to say that I am the cause of all the debt, but i'd like to take a second to thank my douche bag of an ex for being SOOOO kind in screwing me every way possible.. Forget for a minute all the money i dished out while we were together (only to find out that he was cheating on me the whole time with DIRRRRTY GALS) but since we've split up at the end of march, i've already put out about 3grand and by this time next year, it'll have been closer to 6 thousand (roughly- depending how much chrysler wants to take for all the damage to the vehicle thanks to his sorry ass)... what a good guy eh? Its all good.. he's gonna get whats coming to him.. karma's a bitch, and if there's any justice in the world, he'll find this out quick time. But, on the flip side (if you choose to look at it) if i had to go through all the trials and tribulations of the past year and a half to get where i am RIGHT now- then so be it.. I'm 3 months clean right now, have a better idea of what i want from life and not to mention i feel like i know myself better than i ever have before. And at 28 (just shy of 29) that aint such a bad thing.. I had my last Health and Hope meeting last night, and we did some art therapy. It was nice, it wouldve been better if the whole group was there, but it was only myself, lynn and chris- dave showed up too- Erin has agreed to take me on once a month, once the part II is done with at the end of the summer, so thats awesome because the waiting list for a counselor in georgetown is almost running til the end of november... I tried to meet with another doctor a few weeks ago, and it wound up being the same doctor i say in 98 and 2004- and hes an ass.. how can someone in the mental health profession be so damn hard to talk to? He'd cut me off half way through every sentence, almost as if my reply wasnt the one he was looking for.. the one that would support whatever theory he had about what affliction he felt i had.. but what they'v eofficially diagnosed me with is an adjustment disorder... http://www.psychologytoday.com/conditions/adjustment-disorder.. but ya.. thats my story thus far.. have lots more to say.. but i have work to do:) lots o love:) xoxo♥