Thoughts...
So, it came to my attention (somewhat recently) that I'm not necessarily the easiest person to understand.
I don't know if it's my phrasing (admittedly archaic) or my tendency to stumble over my words when I speak aloud, but there we are.
(And yes, there's a reason I'm posting here and not on Facebook. Must you ask these questions and distract me so, solitary reader?)
So... since forever, I've wanted to be a teacher/trainer/something along those lines. I'd always figured, with my love of learning everything and my enjoyment in helping others learn, I'd be a good match.
However, when this was brought to my attention -- I'll admit, at first? I wanted nothing more than to disprove it. I was convinced there was a gross mistake and that it couldn't have been me............right?
I've been thinking about it since, though, and I'm recognizing that, sometimes, even I can't understand me. If I can't understand me, why would I think someone else can? Corollary: if I (as well as others) can't understand me, how I can manage the verbal lucidity to actually teach others?
So I've clearly been going about this all wrong.
However, when one door closes... I've got an opportunity to advance in a different direction at work; rather than a position that involves trying to explain things with words, I might be able to get what's effectively a "reporting" position, a position where I crunch numbers and file them into reports and make sure the reports are legible.
Numbers, unlike words, aren't syntax-and-grammar-specific. Numbers can simply make sense without all that mess. Numbers aren't like verbal logic, with its infinite "possibly right" answers -- it's clear-cut. 1+1=2 (in most variations of the equation; we'll ignore chaos theory and "large/small value of 1" logic).
It's not the position I'd wanted, but perhaps -- just perhaps -- it's the position I've needed.
So, solitary reader, wish me luck -- I'll have competition for the position, and I won't be the only one applying, but I think this is my opportunity to have a job -- nay, a career -- that actually works with my skills and without being hindered by my "peculiarities"...
I don't know if it's my phrasing (admittedly archaic) or my tendency to stumble over my words when I speak aloud, but there we are.
(And yes, there's a reason I'm posting here and not on Facebook. Must you ask these questions and distract me so, solitary reader?)
So... since forever, I've wanted to be a teacher/trainer/something along those lines. I'd always figured, with my love of learning everything and my enjoyment in helping others learn, I'd be a good match.
However, when this was brought to my attention -- I'll admit, at first? I wanted nothing more than to disprove it. I was convinced there was a gross mistake and that it couldn't have been me............right?
I've been thinking about it since, though, and I'm recognizing that, sometimes, even I can't understand me. If I can't understand me, why would I think someone else can? Corollary: if I (as well as others) can't understand me, how I can manage the verbal lucidity to actually teach others?
So I've clearly been going about this all wrong.
However, when one door closes... I've got an opportunity to advance in a different direction at work; rather than a position that involves trying to explain things with words, I might be able to get what's effectively a "reporting" position, a position where I crunch numbers and file them into reports and make sure the reports are legible.
Numbers, unlike words, aren't syntax-and-grammar-specific. Numbers can simply make sense without all that mess. Numbers aren't like verbal logic, with its infinite "possibly right" answers -- it's clear-cut. 1+1=2 (in most variations of the equation; we'll ignore chaos theory and "large/small value of 1" logic).
It's not the position I'd wanted, but perhaps -- just perhaps -- it's the position I've needed.
So, solitary reader, wish me luck -- I'll have competition for the position, and I won't be the only one applying, but I think this is my opportunity to have a job -- nay, a career -- that actually works with my skills and without being hindered by my "peculiarities"...