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Bad things are only supposed to happen in movies.
They are not supposed to happen to me or the people I know.
I know that i've lived an extremely sheltered life. All four of my grandparents are alive and healthy and last year when my dog died, was the first time I had ever truly encountered death.
Until this past year, nothing 'bad' had ever actually happened to anybody I knew. Now suddenly it all seems to be happening at once. A boy i went to primary school with died and we still have no idea what happened, my great-uncle has been diagnosed with cancer and my cousin is extremely ill and nobody knows what is wrong with her.
A boy that I went to school with died this morning.
He was only eighteen years old. He had his whole life ahead of him.
I didn't know him well and i'm not sure that it's really sunk in. I only found out 2 weeks ago that he was really sick, and now he's gone.
I'm trying to remember things about him. I can still remember what he looks like, but I don't know if i'm making up memories of things that happened. Was he in my class last year? Did we really have that conversation? I think that he was at the new years party I went to, but i'm not positive. If he was, he would have been playing poker with me. But i can't remember for sure. I don't remember him looking sick, but sometimes its impossible to know. But apparently he's been sick for years. Cancer. I'm not sure what exactly. But about three weeks ago they stopped his treatment and the doctors gave him a week to live. He held on and got to spend one last mother's day with his mum.
I can't imagine what his family and friends must be going through.
One of my friends was really close to him, and I don't know what i'm supposed to say. Nothing will make it better. One of his best friends has just died.
R.I.P.