So Sorry!
Hey!
Sorry that my update seemed so vague and quick. Jesus came over real quick to see if I wanted to go out with them. I actually didn't feel like it, but told him to stop by after.
Things with him are going pretty good. His mother did end up passing away, but he's okay now. I sometimes feel bad that I wasn't able to go with him to Mexico, but what else could I have done? And it's not like he was able to just waltz his way back in. If you know what I mean...BUT just so you guys know. We have been talking about helping him get his papers. I mean, how hard can it be? I do love him and care about him. I'm not sure if I'm ready to get married, BUT I do want to help him. Not out of pity or anything, but he deserves so much better. And at least with his citizenship it could open up so many different avenues for him. And heck, it's not like I don't know every inch of him! ;) But we're good. He has pretty much moved in, sorta. I mean, he has alot of his stuff over here, but once every few days he does go to his "house". It's nice to wake up with him and go to bed with him. I'm pretty happy and he supports all that I do. He's been helping me out financially so I don't have to work so much, he cooks my food for me once in a while so I can study, he leaves me alone when I need my space...he's one cool guy.
Which makes me wonder. Why do I still do what I do with the Pedros and Giovannis of the world? Pedro and I haven't done anything else since that last time, but I know I miss him sometimes. Not the sex, but the hanging out. We can not hang out like we use to. Just the two of us doing whatever. Things with him were always just so carefree and so fun. It was just so...for lack of better words...chill. You know what I mean?
And then stupid Giovanni. He's a wierdo. He just got married last year, last Fall to be exact and he's already messing around. Hasn't even gotten the five year itch and he's already doing that kind of shit. I see no future with him nor do I want one. Someone like that...something about him I just can't trust. It's like, "Out of sight, out of mind". It was TOTALLY different with Pedro. Like his whole being was different. Okay, I lied. I didn't just meet him the other night. We met up a couple of times actually and I've even gone down to San Diego. What's different about him is that he can just talk dirty and be bad so freely. Maybe because his wife is in the Philippines still? I kinda doubt it. Guys like him will be like that regardless. Anyway, too bad he's still not living in the Los Angeles area. It would be much easier that way. But that's okay. He's older than me. He finished school at SDSU. Like I said previously, he's not really all that cute. Kinda short actually, and he's a bit on the chubby side. Which isn't bad because I don't really like skinny guys. He has a really cool voice though. His voice actually makes him sound cuter than he actually is. It's wierd though because the way he talks about his wife doesn't seem like love. Sounds more like something he HAD to do before he got old and since she's the only one that would actually bite his proprosal he took it. I kinda feel sorry for her because here she is trusting that he's not going to do anything, but it was just so easy for him to start talking to me, getting my number, and having his way with me. Oh well, that's their business, not mine, right?
Sorry that my update seemed so vague and quick. Jesus came over real quick to see if I wanted to go out with them. I actually didn't feel like it, but told him to stop by after.
Things with him are going pretty good. His mother did end up passing away, but he's okay now. I sometimes feel bad that I wasn't able to go with him to Mexico, but what else could I have done? And it's not like he was able to just waltz his way back in. If you know what I mean...BUT just so you guys know. We have been talking about helping him get his papers. I mean, how hard can it be? I do love him and care about him. I'm not sure if I'm ready to get married, BUT I do want to help him. Not out of pity or anything, but he deserves so much better. And at least with his citizenship it could open up so many different avenues for him. And heck, it's not like I don't know every inch of him! ;) But we're good. He has pretty much moved in, sorta. I mean, he has alot of his stuff over here, but once every few days he does go to his "house". It's nice to wake up with him and go to bed with him. I'm pretty happy and he supports all that I do. He's been helping me out financially so I don't have to work so much, he cooks my food for me once in a while so I can study, he leaves me alone when I need my space...he's one cool guy.
Which makes me wonder. Why do I still do what I do with the Pedros and Giovannis of the world? Pedro and I haven't done anything else since that last time, but I know I miss him sometimes. Not the sex, but the hanging out. We can not hang out like we use to. Just the two of us doing whatever. Things with him were always just so carefree and so fun. It was just so...for lack of better words...chill. You know what I mean?
And then stupid Giovanni. He's a wierdo. He just got married last year, last Fall to be exact and he's already messing around. Hasn't even gotten the five year itch and he's already doing that kind of shit. I see no future with him nor do I want one. Someone like that...something about him I just can't trust. It's like, "Out of sight, out of mind". It was TOTALLY different with Pedro. Like his whole being was different. Okay, I lied. I didn't just meet him the other night. We met up a couple of times actually and I've even gone down to San Diego. What's different about him is that he can just talk dirty and be bad so freely. Maybe because his wife is in the Philippines still? I kinda doubt it. Guys like him will be like that regardless. Anyway, too bad he's still not living in the Los Angeles area. It would be much easier that way. But that's okay. He's older than me. He finished school at SDSU. Like I said previously, he's not really all that cute. Kinda short actually, and he's a bit on the chubby side. Which isn't bad because I don't really like skinny guys. He has a really cool voice though. His voice actually makes him sound cuter than he actually is. It's wierd though because the way he talks about his wife doesn't seem like love. Sounds more like something he HAD to do before he got old and since she's the only one that would actually bite his proprosal he took it. I kinda feel sorry for her because here she is trusting that he's not going to do anything, but it was just so easy for him to start talking to me, getting my number, and having his way with me. Oh well, that's their business, not mine, right?