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a rock hard chicken and cold green beans are sitting in my stomache. everything feels angular, heavy and chalky. my relief at it being the weekend died as soon as i got home. my parents have signed me up for a psat course. lovely people really.my father has his head between me future and his ass. my mother doesn't know how to be nice during the times i need her. i'm to "suck it up" and start tomorrow, giving away 4 hours on saturdays and 2 on sundays. i want to cry. how can i do this? how?