Okey. I've been hanging around canines for too long. WAAAAY too long, to react like this. I've never felt this kind of intense, concentrated sort of feeling before. Well, I have, but not this particular one. I'm not even sure what to call it. Kind of a heart-in-your-throat all-your-fur-standing-on-end rush of heat that has me trembling and my tummy full of butterflies the size of small planets that keep trying to crawl out into the rest of me.
Here's what happened (paraphrased):
Hey Jari? Who's your favorite author again?
Me: Clare Bell, author of the Named series and my favorite book of all time, Ratha's Creature.
Check the "Who's Going" list for AFF--is that the one?
That's when I got the feeling. I dropped what I was doing and jumped to the
AFF page so fast I probably did damage to the server. :-3 The final clicks were really hard because I was trembling so much, and I had to stop and take a couple deep breaths and reassure myself that it probably wasn't her, that there was surely more than one Ratha in the world. But there's only one
rathacat; it was her. *cue cougar explosion*
I had to fight with everything in me the urge to go running around in little circle screaming happy explicatives and/or wetting myself. Even now, I'm fighting hard to hold on to enough normalcy to write this. I'm ashamed, I really am, that I should react this way about anything or anyone, especially something so objectively trivial as a favorite author that I don't know at all, personally. Beyond normal idolatry, anyways. :-3 So, ummmm, beware world, the Jari the fanboi has been unleashed! Ms. Bell, I'm REALLY sorry in advance for drooling. o.0