A New Endeavour
I think I’ve kind of fallen into a major pitfall in my faith/spiritual journey. It’s kind of weird, really…I’m a strong believer in the importance of spontaneity. When I do something ritually, the same thing again and again, it looses its meaning. Like transcendental meditation, I guess. Except instead of reaching a deeper level of self, I reach a shallower one: I’m doing something without thinking anything at all. That said, I, being mortal, can’t help but develop routines. So I must be continually vigilant to ensure that the things (that matter) that I do don’t become meaningless ritual.
Generally, what I do at the end of the day (or the start) is to read a chapter out of my bible and then pray about it. But I’ve noticed especially of late that I don’t really remember anything I read even two minutes later, and my prayers have lost all meaning and emotion and, well, conversation. I’ve started saying the same thing to God over and over, not really caring or expecting an answer, and stopped conversing with Him. So I’m going to try to change all that. I’m going to start writing about what I read, do a short little analysis essay and write down thoughts that come to me. This will get me back into the practice of writing, and also hopefully maybe some of what I learn will actually stick instead of flowing into my brain and on out the holes in my head.
Ideally, I’d like to write one of these day, and post them here for anyone who might be interested, but I doubt I’ll be that faithful to my own schedule. I do expect to produce a fair bit of friends-page spam, though, so I’m going to put them behind a filter. If you want to read my daily (yeah right) theological rants, please comment and lemme know!
Generally, what I do at the end of the day (or the start) is to read a chapter out of my bible and then pray about it. But I’ve noticed especially of late that I don’t really remember anything I read even two minutes later, and my prayers have lost all meaning and emotion and, well, conversation. I’ve started saying the same thing to God over and over, not really caring or expecting an answer, and stopped conversing with Him. So I’m going to try to change all that. I’m going to start writing about what I read, do a short little analysis essay and write down thoughts that come to me. This will get me back into the practice of writing, and also hopefully maybe some of what I learn will actually stick instead of flowing into my brain and on out the holes in my head.
Ideally, I’d like to write one of these day, and post them here for anyone who might be interested, but I doubt I’ll be that faithful to my own schedule. I do expect to produce a fair bit of friends-page spam, though, so I’m going to put them behind a filter. If you want to read my daily (yeah right) theological rants, please comment and lemme know!