Life, and death
Over the past month, I've accumulated a number of stories that I thought to myself at the time 'that would be great to post on the blog'. But I didn't. I've kinda been in low level shut down I guess. Keeping things in my head.
For the past three or four days, one of our rabbits has been sick. I've been ringing everybody I can think of, and on about 8 different forums for advice, I've spoken to three vets, a breeder and a few others. I've been syringe feeding him, and he's been fighting. I've got every remedy under the sun sitting on the kitchen table right now and I've been going out every half hour to squeeze more goo into his mouth.
I'm not a cruel person. I hope I'm not. I don't want to lose this bunny, he's a fighter, he's been with us for 9 years. I also know that I love him more than I love myself, and that means if I have to let him go, I will. He isn't mine, he belongs to my sister, but she seems, frankly, uninterested which breaks my heart even more.
The bit that's getting me is that everybody is telling me I'm doing stuff wrong, but everybody disagrees on what's right. Everybody tells me to get him some pain releif, that makes sense to me, even if he doesn't start eating at least he'll be comfortable for a while, and if we have to let him go it's better than he's calm and relaxed when we make the call, however the vets reckon there's little they can do in the way of pain releif. Some say try this remedy while others say it'll make him worse.
He started eating a bit last night, a bit of hay and some mushed up pellets. I'm giving him some more now. The rain isn't helping.
Times like this, I cry a lot. I always fear the worst, sometimes prematurely, sometimes with horrifying accuracy. At this stage, I'm just... hoping. He doesn't seem too dehydrated so the fluids must be being absorbed to a degree and he's fighting just as hard so he must be getting energy out of the food i stuffed into him. If we can just get some pain releif he might pick up. I have to hope.
For the past three or four days, one of our rabbits has been sick. I've been ringing everybody I can think of, and on about 8 different forums for advice, I've spoken to three vets, a breeder and a few others. I've been syringe feeding him, and he's been fighting. I've got every remedy under the sun sitting on the kitchen table right now and I've been going out every half hour to squeeze more goo into his mouth.
I'm not a cruel person. I hope I'm not. I don't want to lose this bunny, he's a fighter, he's been with us for 9 years. I also know that I love him more than I love myself, and that means if I have to let him go, I will. He isn't mine, he belongs to my sister, but she seems, frankly, uninterested which breaks my heart even more.
The bit that's getting me is that everybody is telling me I'm doing stuff wrong, but everybody disagrees on what's right. Everybody tells me to get him some pain releif, that makes sense to me, even if he doesn't start eating at least he'll be comfortable for a while, and if we have to let him go it's better than he's calm and relaxed when we make the call, however the vets reckon there's little they can do in the way of pain releif. Some say try this remedy while others say it'll make him worse.
He started eating a bit last night, a bit of hay and some mushed up pellets. I'm giving him some more now. The rain isn't helping.
Times like this, I cry a lot. I always fear the worst, sometimes prematurely, sometimes with horrifying accuracy. At this stage, I'm just... hoping. He doesn't seem too dehydrated so the fluids must be being absorbed to a degree and he's fighting just as hard so he must be getting energy out of the food i stuffed into him. If we can just get some pain releif he might pick up. I have to hope.