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Surfacing for a breath.
Things have been happening. (Things are always happening!) I'm not terribly sure how to relate them to people who haven't been part of them, though-- it's been one part rolling around in the ashes around a firepit, one part cultivating certain thought patterns, one part coiling the resolve to be Elsewhere.
I've been out of the habit of putting things up here for months now. (I've been out of the habit of putting things up anywhere!) This most recent September-December absence isn't much longer than the previous July-September absence, but it -feels- palpably longer when I look at it. What was supposed to be a great rest turned into, at some point, into self-indulgent navel-gazing. I'm not sure it could have gone any other way, though, which is probably okay. I'll never get that time back, ~but~ it was never ~mine~ to begin with.
That's always the fun part, y'see.
Things have been happening. (Things are always happening!) I'm not terribly sure how to relate them to people who haven't been part of them, though-- it's been one part rolling around in the ashes around a firepit, one part cultivating certain thought patterns, one part coiling the resolve to be Elsewhere.
I've been out of the habit of putting things up here for months now. (I've been out of the habit of putting things up anywhere!) This most recent September-December absence isn't much longer than the previous July-September absence, but it -feels- palpably longer when I look at it. What was supposed to be a great rest turned into, at some point, into self-indulgent navel-gazing. I'm not sure it could have gone any other way, though, which is probably okay. I'll never get that time back, ~but~ it was never ~mine~ to begin with.
That's always the fun part, y'see.