Don't you forget about me..

[jaquie05]

I'm so sick of looking for approval from my friends.
I'm so sick of being really sick.
I'm a step ahead of last night at least I can get out of bed today.
I wish my doctor gave me better meds. like the kind that makes me think The Darkness I believe in a thing called loved music video is the funniest thing ever.
I want it to be 9 so I can watch Foodnetwork challenge gingerbread houses.
I really don't want to be updating this right now.
I really wish I did not have to go to the symphony.
I'm sick of people I date not being good enough for my friends.. ever.
If I like them get over it.
Maybe they just don't like when I'm happy?
I haven't quiet figured it out yet.
I haven't figured out life yet either.
I wish I could run away.
I wish I felt good enough to get behind the wheel of my car and go somewhere.
I wish I didn't always look like shit.
I wish I cared about school again.
I wish I wasn't so scared all the time.
I wish I didn't have to get all these scary tests.
I wish I would've went to work today.
I feel like shit but I need the money.
The sad thing is I'm actually really happy.
I'm just so sick of everybody.
I could punch them in the face.