first with your hands, then with your mouth.
the last time i updated this was before dillon and i broke up the first time. from when i'd just gotten dropped from drama. from before i quit waterpolo and swim. before i worked at sweet peas. before all of the friend drama last year. and that just needs to change.
its weird to think about how much i've changed since then.
things change so much in a year and half.
i have completely different and completely fabulous friends. who i LOVE more than anyone.
make new friends, but keep the old. i do still love my old friends.
the crying hating angry depressed phase is over. finally.
thanks to josh, who put up with that for what 6 months?
for the first time ever... i am completely myself.
and thats a thought i never thought i'd have.
i have come to terms with...
the fact that some people will always hate you.
people talking shit, because they always will.
the things that go wrong, but you just cant do anything about.
i want to do different things with my life.
my weekly events arent things i ever thought they'd be.
what im doing has nothing to do with "what everyone else is doing."
i hate school. and my grades are kinda sucky.. especially math.
well thats just an example of how somethings never change.
ookk. well i just couldnt stand looking at this stuff anymore, it was too old. so now heres a new start. maybe ill update this more. but i dont know. xangas consumed too much of the last 2 years for me to just quit on it now.
i slept until 2:00 this afternoon. this is my payback.. and is it weird that im kinda excited to get to wear my NYU sweatshirt tomorrow? because i am. i dont know, i just makes me happy. even if im not going there. it just makes me happy. well. i'll try to sleep now.
later days.