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so the eventful unfoldings of my recent move have left me exhausted. i lack a sense of energy..one that i never knew i used.
i feel my self being chisled away by each passing hour. the anticapation of getting this show on the road ,so-to speak, is driving me mad. i cant wait till everything has been taken care of and i can pursue my previously made plans. that is of course if i can make it until then.... 7 months. doesnt seem like a long time. but for those of us clenching on with a frail thread of "life's too short", .....it seems like forever.
'she's scared', he whispers, "shes scared that its going to return. only this time it wont be as forgiveng. she fears it will take her away this time..she believes its coming back.....even tho it may never return. she fears the worst"
I ask, "Doesnt living with a daily fear of fearing the worst possible thing to happen ....allow for it to happen?"
the words sputtered outta him, sounding like that of a choking cat, "....yes..."
i feel my self being chisled away by each passing hour. the anticapation of getting this show on the road ,so-to speak, is driving me mad. i cant wait till everything has been taken care of and i can pursue my previously made plans. that is of course if i can make it until then.... 7 months. doesnt seem like a long time. but for those of us clenching on with a frail thread of "life's too short", .....it seems like forever.
'she's scared', he whispers, "shes scared that its going to return. only this time it wont be as forgiveng. she fears it will take her away this time..she believes its coming back.....even tho it may never return. she fears the worst"
I ask, "Doesnt living with a daily fear of fearing the worst possible thing to happen ....allow for it to happen?"
the words sputtered outta him, sounding like that of a choking cat, "....yes..."