oh lord, its been a long time
Ive burned several bridges and jumped through every fire in an attempt to save what little hope was still alive. Keeping myself so damn busy just livin life that there's days I could die and not have time to notice. My brain, my heart, and my stomach have all taken an entirely different road than I had traveled before.
Ive been reading all of my previous entries and they're filled with bitching and moaning. Cries for help and puzzle-like complaints. It was kinda difficult to break the code. I noticed I wrote in such a way that folks could read about my life and not get mad at me or each other. the entries were just shy of incriminating. Im happy where I am. Im happy with who I am. Im happy with most of my surroundings. These are all good things.
My only complaint that I see as valid: Ive done just about nothing with a music career. Ive been running in place, it seems, for ten years. Maybe Im doing the wrong things, playing the wrong music, or playing with the wrong folks? who effin knows. Perhaps, I just dont try hard enough, but to dwell on this has been another classic case of a waste of time.
I dont want to ramble. I only wanted to flow.
Life's a gamble, and now you know.
Ive been reading all of my previous entries and they're filled with bitching and moaning. Cries for help and puzzle-like complaints. It was kinda difficult to break the code. I noticed I wrote in such a way that folks could read about my life and not get mad at me or each other. the entries were just shy of incriminating. Im happy where I am. Im happy with who I am. Im happy with most of my surroundings. These are all good things.
My only complaint that I see as valid: Ive done just about nothing with a music career. Ive been running in place, it seems, for ten years. Maybe Im doing the wrong things, playing the wrong music, or playing with the wrong folks? who effin knows. Perhaps, I just dont try hard enough, but to dwell on this has been another classic case of a waste of time.
I dont want to ramble. I only wanted to flow.
Life's a gamble, and now you know.