errr
So I just got off the phone a little bit ago and I was thinking about a lot. It's definately true, and I know this for real this time, that it's time to really move forward and stop living the way I do.
But here's my question (in a couple lines)...honestly the only time I am really happy and feel good about things is when I am spending time with her. That's not to say I don't have fun doing other things, just that that's only when I'm really happy.
Now, that's definately a GOOD thing to have something in your life you like that much. BUT is my lack of real happiness with anything else...is that because I'm fully aware that people and relationships are all that really matter in life...or is it that I let myself slip that far that I can't find happiness in other parts of my miserable life?
And that is why I am so terribly afraid of losing her, because I don't know how else to find joy in life.
Ah well.
I'll figure myself out eventually...soon, I plan.
But here's my question (in a couple lines)...honestly the only time I am really happy and feel good about things is when I am spending time with her. That's not to say I don't have fun doing other things, just that that's only when I'm really happy.
Now, that's definately a GOOD thing to have something in your life you like that much. BUT is my lack of real happiness with anything else...is that because I'm fully aware that people and relationships are all that really matter in life...or is it that I let myself slip that far that I can't find happiness in other parts of my miserable life?
And that is why I am so terribly afraid of losing her, because I don't know how else to find joy in life.
Ah well.
I'll figure myself out eventually...soon, I plan.