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[japanesetexan]

So after all the shit I stirred and all the worry I went through the last couple of weeks. All for nothing. If it came to the result that I was working for then I would be ok with it. Though to suddenly getting told oh dont worry about it... I think I am tired of being nice to anyone. Friends help eachother out, enjoy eachother's company.... I hate

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[lainevalentine]

That WAS my asking.

I don't get a promotion because my last manager was a dick.

I said nothing about bringing the baby before we were ready for him.

My mother is, in my opinion, being unreasonable, it is NOT UP TO YOU to patch shit up with her FOR me I am PERFECTLY capable of dealing with my own MOTHER.

I did not have the time to just keep arguing, if I get a new apartment I need to ensure I can get it before the 18th. Would you like me to live in my car until we could get this shit together?

This WAS an emergency.

When I traded petsmarts I need a repertoire with the NEW MANAGER AND I'VE BEEN HERE SIX MONTHS.

I am working towards paying Davie back, do not speak for him.

I DID NOT HAVE THE TIME FOR FUCKING PLANNING, YES IT WAS BAD ON MY PART BUT WTF I ASSUMED MY MOTHER WOULD HELP. BOO ON ME FOR ASSUMING MY MOTHER WOULD DO SHIT. THANKYOU.

You did not help me pay for this apartment I am sitting in right now.
You do not pay me any money to get by at ALL.
I get no money directly from you and I went into this assuming I'd get a little monthly 'as your wife'. The only benefit I have is really, the medical shit.

Fuck YOU for assuming all this shit about me, just because I can't e-mail you 24/7 telling you the nitty-gritty of my life's story does not mean you can just up and attack me.

The only reason you ever brought me anywhere was to guilt me or pester me or railroad me into fucking you under some pretense that I would suddenly become straight or someshit. 'I'm a great guy for bringing you to this ball and not expecting sex, aren't I!' upset me greatly. IF you were such a fucking fantastic man you wouldn't have had the need to state that AT ALL.

So fuck you.
Fuck your invisible pre-nup.
Fuck your need to make babies with me when you know damn well I don't want a Father for my children.
Fuck your opinion.
Fuck your money.
Fuck YOU.

Trust me to say I'm OK when I'm OK and don't assume you need to do all my shit for me, I am a conscious being you know. I may be slow, but I sure as hell am not STUPID.

It really seriously fucking breaks my heart that I trusted you to be an understanding and possibly good friend and all you've become is this ..this... assuming little undermining and controlling bastard.
So thanks.
Thanks.
>B|

[lainevalentine]

PPS don't blame me for this whole charade going to shit. You know how to piss me off well enough and you're upsetting me all on your own over misunderstandings. I'm not a mean persona nd I still intended to end this on good enough terms without giving up my own personal freedoms, rights, or happiness.
I've told you forever I'm not the kind of girl who can settle on being a housewife or doing things solely because someone else wants to do them.

Be proud, I'm shaking so badly right now because of my frustrations that I can't type and I need to go cry.

[japanesetexan]

Well this had nothing to do with your mother. I wasn't going to patch anything with her. I was going to try to help you move back in there. I only talked to your mom any during this to hear what she say in this. I needed more information. Being stuck on a ship leaves me very little in the way of commation. What you told me on why you didnt understand why wouldnt take you in made no sense at all.

Also this had my whole family up in arm's because they were all against the idea of you moving out there to 29. I love my family and last time they were in this much up roar they almost disowned me. I wouldn't go on if that happened.

About the ball what did you expect? I enjoyed spending time with you point. I always have. Thats why I always tried to spend time with you when home on leave.

I didn't want to hear everything about your life. I wanted just anything from the outside world. All I ever saw anymore, after about 100 days on the ship without even a sign of another ship, was pictures of brooke's new kid and pictures of my dad's mustang.

I gave up on wanting a kid with you a long time ago. I did want to try to break your fear of men alittle because i think fears like that just keeps you from exporing life.

You though I dont know why but part of what you says make me want to make sure you aren't living in a fucking car.

I will put the money back in a couple of days.

[japanesetexan]

Sorry ran out of time. I did agree to be sending you money but if you got a bank account. I was in the field 75% of the time so I had to do specail stuff just to get my rent paid. It took me taking you in for the joint account for you to have a bank account. At that point with all the training and everything else, I forgot.

So the money going back in there is all yours and what money that goes in there from this point.

The amount will change when I get back but I do stand by my promises.