Life Update: Early March
Here we are again on the emotional roller coaster. But we're on a high note.
Sure, she fucked me over and it sucks...but I'm not gonna let it change who I am. I'm not gonna let one shitty person, or a pantheon of shitty people change who I know I am. I'm gonna get up, stand up, and whatever the rest of those bob marley lyrics are. Don't give up the fight?
I've fucked up my fair share in life. But i'm still in my early, early, early 20s. I've got a whole life to lead and a lot of time to make up for my shortcomings in my youth. Who the fuck doesn't have shortcomings in their youth?
I wreak of cigarettes and once again i'm all doughy-eyed over some girl. The kick? It's HER roommate. Yeahhhh, maybe I'm just being vengeful. But getting to know someone after only listening to one other person's view on them...it really opens you up to just how sick people are. I don't know that what I just wrote makes sense, but imagine this. You hang out with someone and hear all the nasty things they have to say about someone...and that person is someone you've known just as long but have never hung out with 1 on 1. So when things between you and person A fall apart, you hang out with person B and actually get to know them....it broadens your horizons just a bit.
Now am I saying that person B is a better person than A? No, not entirely. Not in a general sense....in a case specific sense...yes. But that's neither here nor there.
What I'm really trying to get at is this. I'm drunk. Butttttttt, you gotta learn to take this world, the people in it, and all the things you learn about it with a big ole grain of salt. It's hard to always keep in the back of your mind that everything you learn is skewed in one way or another. 2 + 2 is always going to equal 4. But when it comes to interaction, when you leave any kind of wiggle room....it's gonna be used. And you're gonna get screwed over if you don't take it into account.
Am I just rambling? Very much so. But I hope that when I read this again and reflect on it, I take away something completely different. Because right now, I am very much spiteful and very much upset with the world and some of the people in it. But hopefully, the optimistic part of me.....the part of me that has gotten me through so much...will pick me up and make me go go.
I love you all.
Sure, she fucked me over and it sucks...but I'm not gonna let it change who I am. I'm not gonna let one shitty person, or a pantheon of shitty people change who I know I am. I'm gonna get up, stand up, and whatever the rest of those bob marley lyrics are. Don't give up the fight?
I've fucked up my fair share in life. But i'm still in my early, early, early 20s. I've got a whole life to lead and a lot of time to make up for my shortcomings in my youth. Who the fuck doesn't have shortcomings in their youth?
I wreak of cigarettes and once again i'm all doughy-eyed over some girl. The kick? It's HER roommate. Yeahhhh, maybe I'm just being vengeful. But getting to know someone after only listening to one other person's view on them...it really opens you up to just how sick people are. I don't know that what I just wrote makes sense, but imagine this. You hang out with someone and hear all the nasty things they have to say about someone...and that person is someone you've known just as long but have never hung out with 1 on 1. So when things between you and person A fall apart, you hang out with person B and actually get to know them....it broadens your horizons just a bit.
Now am I saying that person B is a better person than A? No, not entirely. Not in a general sense....in a case specific sense...yes. But that's neither here nor there.
What I'm really trying to get at is this. I'm drunk. Butttttttt, you gotta learn to take this world, the people in it, and all the things you learn about it with a big ole grain of salt. It's hard to always keep in the back of your mind that everything you learn is skewed in one way or another. 2 + 2 is always going to equal 4. But when it comes to interaction, when you leave any kind of wiggle room....it's gonna be used. And you're gonna get screwed over if you don't take it into account.
Am I just rambling? Very much so. But I hope that when I read this again and reflect on it, I take away something completely different. Because right now, I am very much spiteful and very much upset with the world and some of the people in it. But hopefully, the optimistic part of me.....the part of me that has gotten me through so much...will pick me up and make me go go.
I love you all.