Well, I can say what I do to try to look happy XD Because I do that very often, so that people can't find out when I'm sad, but sometimes I just can't take it XD
You gotta thing about good things : D That's all I do. And also, you gotta think positive, even though if you think you're like... going to kill yourself because of the pain XD Or just see Toshiya's smile <3 Just looking at him makes my day ^^
I'm not really good at hiding when I'm feeling down.
...but sometimes I just can't take it.
Believe me, I know that feeling!
I try to think about good things & be positive, but I'm not a very confident person, & people have a way of getting to me, of making me feel bad & doubt or question myself, because I am often afraid of people or intimidated by them, as if they are all better or more important than I am. Then I start thinking I'm not good enough or I'm dumb or I'll never achieve the things I want to. And yeah, every once in a while, I start thinking it's, as Diru wrote in "Machiavellism", "wrist-cut show" time. :( I won't do anything, but yeah, sometimes it feels that bad.
Yeah, Toshiya does have a nice smile. <3 I'll have to keep some pictures of the boys at work. Maybe smiley ones! XD I have a Mana photo (not a smiley one, though) from an e-mail I sent (long story), & some scenic shots from my Japan trip that I use for wallpapers...
... YOU WENT TO JAPAN? O__O HOLY CRAPANOLY *.* That's so cool!
Aw... Don't think like that! I used to think like that too, but then I thought: "... I'm not a bad person... I'm just surrounded by them" Though in the past I could hide my pain like in nowadays, but now I can hide better : D
You know what? For you, the most precious person is you ^^ Even if you thought it's someone else, it's you. Because you give life to yourself. ( I don't know if you understand, my English sometimes sucks xD; )
And yes, do that! : D I have some pictures with my friends on my LJ smiling XD Everytime I see them, makes me smile too
Yeah, I was blessed with the honour of being able to go. Now, my goal is to GO BACK! I'd love to live there. But for now, I want to go to school there as a language student, to live there & learn the language for at least a year, maybe 2, & see if I could maybe make a life there. It's my dream. :)
I LOVE THAT!! "I'm not a bad person...I'm just surrounded by them." <3333
Thanks for that. Yes, I do understand. I know you're right, it's just hard for me to see sometimes what other people (the ones who like/love me) see in me...or how much I should mean to myself.
I will try to find some smiley pics to take to work! ^_^
I can give you some if you want <3 But it'll have to be later, because I'm not on my computer XD I'll send them by message ^^
Yes, when I thought that I was like: "... DID I JUST THOUGHT SOMETHING COOL? AWESOME, DUDE! *runs in circles*" xDDD
Don't try to know what they think about you, I've been stuck a year because of that, and I stopped to try to "guess" what they think about me xD Just be yourself ^^ I'm sure they like you in that way <3 Just never change
I'd love to live in Japan too! But to me that's just impossible XD I know some things in Japanese! In this case "DATTEBAYO!" would fit perfectly, it means "BELIEVE IT!"
Awww, that's really sweet of you! I'd like that. Whenever you're able, no problem. Thanks so much! ^_^
Hee hee! I'd do the same thing if I had an awesome thought like that! XD
Thanks for the advice, I will certainly try! <3
Hey, what happened to "everything's possible"? Maybe living in Japan is just not possible for you right now. But never say 'never' - if you had told me a couple of years before I went that one day I'd be going to Japan, I wouldn't have believed a word of it! So things do change, sometimes in big ways.
That's cool that you know some Japanese! "Dattebayo" was one I didn't know, so thanks for that! And yes, a perfect fit. I will try to remember to "believe it"! :D
No problem! Well, I do believe in "everythings possible", and yes, I never say never! (except this time XD), but I prefer to be on tours than just to be stuck on Japan, of course living in Japan is not bad, at all <3 before I desided to play bass a while ago, I wanted to live in Japan, but I really want to have a good career, I need to be over the world, right? xP I'll go to Japan every years ò.ó DATTEBAYO!
That's a good idea! You're young enough that you've got lots of time for travel/tours...there are a few other places I also want to see yet. And even if I don't get to make a life in Japan, I feel the same - it's someplace I'd keep going back to.
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You gotta thing about good things : D That's all I do. And also, you gotta think positive, even though if you think you're like... going to kill yourself because of the pain XD Or just see Toshiya's smile <3 Just looking at him makes my day ^^
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...but sometimes I just can't take it.
Believe me, I know that feeling!
I try to think about good things & be positive, but I'm not a very confident person, & people have a way of getting to me, of making me feel bad & doubt or question myself, because I am often afraid of people or intimidated by them, as if they are all better or more important than I am. Then I start thinking I'm not good enough or I'm dumb or I'll never achieve the things I want to. And yeah, every once in a while, I start thinking it's, as Diru wrote in "Machiavellism", "wrist-cut show" time. :( I won't do anything, but yeah, sometimes it feels that bad.
Yeah, Toshiya does have a nice smile. <3 I'll have to keep some pictures of the boys at work. Maybe smiley ones! XD I have a Mana photo (not a smiley one, though) from an e-mail I sent (long story), & some scenic shots from my Japan trip that I use for wallpapers...
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Aw... Don't think like that! I used to think like that too, but then I thought: "... I'm not a bad person... I'm just surrounded by them" Though in the past I could hide my pain like in nowadays, but now I can hide better : D
You know what? For you, the most precious person is you ^^ Even if you thought it's someone else, it's you. Because you give life to yourself. ( I don't know if you understand, my English sometimes sucks xD; )
And yes, do that! : D I have some pictures with my friends on my LJ smiling XD Everytime I see them, makes me smile too
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I LOVE THAT!! "I'm not a bad person...I'm just surrounded by them." <3333
Thanks for that. Yes, I do understand. I know you're right, it's just hard for me to see sometimes what other people (the ones who like/love me) see in me...or how much I should mean to myself.
I will try to find some smiley pics to take to work! ^_^
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Yes, when I thought that I was like: "... DID I JUST THOUGHT SOMETHING COOL? AWESOME, DUDE! *runs in circles*" xDDD
Don't try to know what they think about you, I've been stuck a year because of that, and I stopped to try to "guess" what they think about me xD Just be yourself ^^ I'm sure they like you in that way <3 Just never change
I'd love to live in Japan too! But to me that's just impossible XD I know some things in Japanese! In this case "DATTEBAYO!" would fit perfectly, it means "BELIEVE IT!"
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Hee hee! I'd do the same thing if I had an awesome thought like that! XD
Thanks for the advice, I will certainly try! <3
Hey, what happened to "everything's possible"? Maybe living in Japan is just not possible for you right now. But never say 'never' - if you had told me a couple of years before I went that one day I'd be going to Japan, I wouldn't have believed a word of it! So things do change, sometimes in big ways.
That's cool that you know some Japanese! "Dattebayo" was one I didn't know, so thanks for that! And yes, a perfect fit. I will try to remember to "believe it"! :D
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Douitashimashite!
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Dattebayo! ^_^
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