thoughts
The time of the year now approaches when I start to feel paranoid bout stuff. Its already started. One person in particular is not talking to me AT ALL (except for short words like "yes" and "ok" and then the convo winds down with a "Im busy, I'll call you later" which until recently had always happened. No phone calls anymore. "Paranoia" Need to watch that movie "Better Off Dead" Kelli..Im in as long as you dont fall asleep!
I was also thinking today of all the crap I do to people and how mean people in general are to each other. For example, it is not uncommon in school for someone to say "You are ugly" to someone else and even though the statement is closely followed by "just kidding" it really does hurt the person it was said to. Also whats up with girls that like guys with girlfriends. When I think about it, it is wicked shitty. I am bitching myself out right now becuase that is my current situation. Its no surprise so keep your gasps to yourselves. I dont want to be in that situation anymore. Stupid. Liz L once told me not to sell myself short becuase I deserve the best (It was on my birthday card) She's right. Maybe I do deserve better. Maybe I dont though because of the terrible person that I am. Holy crap, who does that? Apparently I do, Im the slut.
Snowboarding was fun!
Asa (The instructor) was really cool and cute. Hes from Vermont. Too bad.
Someone asked me if I got his phone number....I wish I did, but at the same time, it made me feel even worse because if I had given him mine, he wouldnt have called same with every other person. NO no feeling bad for myself. I dont care. I can be a hermit (because Im certainly not becomming a lesbian....ewwie(for me atleast, other people can do what they want))
Thats the other thing, roomers, they can be funny (like Ellen moving to Bosnia) but mean ones should not be circulated. People have feelings.
I need to go coach basketball right now. My 3rd and 4th grade girls are the only ones that understand me...wow just kidding that was way dramatic. Ew I hate it when I do that.
Peace out, but no kisses. If you read this and see me in the future, please talk to me and give me a hug so I am not unhappy!
Love you most.
Sarahwallace
I was also thinking today of all the crap I do to people and how mean people in general are to each other. For example, it is not uncommon in school for someone to say "You are ugly" to someone else and even though the statement is closely followed by "just kidding" it really does hurt the person it was said to. Also whats up with girls that like guys with girlfriends. When I think about it, it is wicked shitty. I am bitching myself out right now becuase that is my current situation. Its no surprise so keep your gasps to yourselves. I dont want to be in that situation anymore. Stupid. Liz L once told me not to sell myself short becuase I deserve the best (It was on my birthday card) She's right. Maybe I do deserve better. Maybe I dont though because of the terrible person that I am. Holy crap, who does that? Apparently I do, Im the slut.
Snowboarding was fun!
Asa (The instructor) was really cool and cute. Hes from Vermont. Too bad.
Someone asked me if I got his phone number....I wish I did, but at the same time, it made me feel even worse because if I had given him mine, he wouldnt have called same with every other person. NO no feeling bad for myself. I dont care. I can be a hermit (because Im certainly not becomming a lesbian....ewwie(for me atleast, other people can do what they want))
Thats the other thing, roomers, they can be funny (like Ellen moving to Bosnia) but mean ones should not be circulated. People have feelings.
I need to go coach basketball right now. My 3rd and 4th grade girls are the only ones that understand me...wow just kidding that was way dramatic. Ew I hate it when I do that.
Peace out, but no kisses. If you read this and see me in the future, please talk to me and give me a hug so I am not unhappy!
Love you most.
Sarahwallace