Sin and Bones ~ Sequel to 'To Purge in Silence'
Title: Sin and Bones (find the first part here )
Pairing: KoKame
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Depressing themes, AU, Smut, eating disorders, depression, anxiety, character death, all that fun stuff.
Beta: no one~
Summary: Kame has lost a lot of weight since he met Koki, but Koki has lost more. His heart is failing and Kame is falling in love with Koki, it's all sin. Sin and bones.
A/N: so i'm back with the sequel to To Purge in Silence~ i was re-reading it yesterday and i was actually shocked to find i had written something like that... anyways~ i dedicate this to kattunglaylover who is always my best reader~ love you Anna-chan <3
I'm not chubby anymore, well, at least not to people. Koki says I'm looking sexy as ever, my mother cries at night and my doctor says I look sickly.
My mirror says I'm still fat. I can still pinch my little layers here and there, which means I have more KGs to lose. Koki is coming over so we can do this new workout he swears will make my butt-pudge go away. If it doesn't I might just punish him.
"Looking very good." He says in that calm, gentle tone of his. Lately it's been more forced, like he has to use extra strength to get his voice to come out so soft. It scares Kame sometimes.
"Shut up and come here." I grin and pull him into me, his small little body fitting against mine. I kiss his still plump lips and feed from them, they're addicting and I just cannot get enough of them this month.
Koki and I aren't in a formal relationship yet, but everyone at our school seems to think we are. It's understandable really, we skip lunch to make-out in the library and holds hands in the hallways. It's always been that way for Koki and I, ever since Sophomore year.
Now we're seniors, graduating in just a month. Koki has lived on his own for a couple months and says as soon as I turn eighteen he's making me live with him.
"I need you around, Kazuya. You're my strength and control." He breathes it over my skin, slowly and gently. He always breathes over my skin, in little pants.
I let a moan escape when he bit my nipple, I didn't realize we had lost our shirts. "Pay attention to me." He says, licking his way down my concave stomach. He drums his fingers on my ribs and carefully lays me on the bed, as if I'll shatter if he does too hard.
Which I suppose, is a bit true.
His calloused hands stroke down my skin, undoing my pants and pulling them down. "It's not fair," I say. "I want to see your body too." And I mean it, Koki has always been attractive to me. I've always enjoyed kissing him and touching him, lately though, I want to spend forever with him.
Koki is not only my best friend, he's my love. I'm in love with the frail boy with a gentle voice and mean features.
"Ah! More~" I moan out as I feel his tongue lick a ring around my entrance, I wriggle to feel more of that sinful muscle of his and cry out when it's pushing into me.
"Koki~" I pull at his hair and mewl, I can't do much else than call him name and moan. His tongue feels so good inside of me, and a while later I realize his cock feels even better.
"Kame, you're so skinny. It's beautiful." He leans down to kiss my nose softly and holds my headboard as he rocks slowly against me. I smile and grasp his hips, slowing him down.
Because this will be the last time I ever have sex with Koki.
Koki is going to die next month.
I shiver as I come into his hand and tremble at the feel of his seed pouring into me. He pulls out with a groan and pants next to my ear.
"Kazuya, be my lover." He whispers in the silence of the room, I say yes.
Afterall, who can say no to a dead boy walking?
===
It's been about a week since Koki and I finalized the relationship between us, if possible we've been ever more inseparable. I practically live at Koki's now, my mother understanding since he's going to die soon.
I cry at night when he's sleeping.
I don't want Koki to die.
"Koki, I want you to recover." I say one day, in the midst of the blistering heat. We're both shivering underneath the thin spring blanket, no meat on the bones to warm us with.
"No, Kazuya. I'm perfect now, I don't want to get fat again." He says, not looking away from his phone. Scrolling down his dash board covered in razor blades and skinny people. I get offended by his statement because I'm still a few KGs bigger than Koki, but I know it's just his disease speaking.
Because Rex* has a voice of his own.
"Koki, I want you to live. I can't lose you." This makes him look up at me, with a happy glint in his eye. He's been waiting for me to say this, he's been waiting for years to hear it.
"Kazuya, what are you saying?" He tries not to grin and fails, I giggle and crawl onto his lap and kiss his gaunt little face.
"I'm in love with you, Koki. I can't live without you." He smiles wide and I can't resist him then, devouring his tongue and neck.
I don't need food when I have Koki's skin, lips, tongue, cock. I am surviving off of Koki.
===
The emergency room is white and bright, eyes not staring at you because everyone is sitting in here for a bad reason.
So I cry freely.
Koki was admitted this morning after his brother found him slumped over his couch, unconscious.
His heart has given out on him, after so many years it stopped beating.
They tried to resuscitate him in the ambulance, to no avail. Koki was gone. My lover, my best friend, was dead.
"Kamenashi Kazuya-san?" A nurse called my name and I followed her back to a examination room. "The doctor will be with you shortly." I nodded and laid back on the plastic-covered gurney.
I was checking into recovery.
Koki's last words flooded through my mind as I drifted off to sleep in the chilly room.
"I want to see you from wherever I'm going Kazuya, so you must get better."
===
*: Rex is the 'pet' name for anorexia in males, whereas Ana is the one for females.
A/N: thank you for reading this super depressing and shitty sequel. maybe I'll follow up and check in on Kazuya sometime. maybe not, who knows. but I've been thinking about this fic for a while and I had to resolve something >.< thanks for reading~
Pairing: KoKame
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Depressing themes, AU, Smut, eating disorders, depression, anxiety, character death, all that fun stuff.
Beta: no one~
Summary: Kame has lost a lot of weight since he met Koki, but Koki has lost more. His heart is failing and Kame is falling in love with Koki, it's all sin. Sin and bones.
A/N: so i'm back with the sequel to To Purge in Silence~ i was re-reading it yesterday and i was actually shocked to find i had written something like that... anyways~ i dedicate this to kattunglaylover who is always my best reader~ love you Anna-chan <3
I'm not chubby anymore, well, at least not to people. Koki says I'm looking sexy as ever, my mother cries at night and my doctor says I look sickly.
My mirror says I'm still fat. I can still pinch my little layers here and there, which means I have more KGs to lose. Koki is coming over so we can do this new workout he swears will make my butt-pudge go away. If it doesn't I might just punish him.
"Looking very good." He says in that calm, gentle tone of his. Lately it's been more forced, like he has to use extra strength to get his voice to come out so soft. It scares Kame sometimes.
"Shut up and come here." I grin and pull him into me, his small little body fitting against mine. I kiss his still plump lips and feed from them, they're addicting and I just cannot get enough of them this month.
Koki and I aren't in a formal relationship yet, but everyone at our school seems to think we are. It's understandable really, we skip lunch to make-out in the library and holds hands in the hallways. It's always been that way for Koki and I, ever since Sophomore year.
Now we're seniors, graduating in just a month. Koki has lived on his own for a couple months and says as soon as I turn eighteen he's making me live with him.
"I need you around, Kazuya. You're my strength and control." He breathes it over my skin, slowly and gently. He always breathes over my skin, in little pants.
I let a moan escape when he bit my nipple, I didn't realize we had lost our shirts. "Pay attention to me." He says, licking his way down my concave stomach. He drums his fingers on my ribs and carefully lays me on the bed, as if I'll shatter if he does too hard.
Which I suppose, is a bit true.
His calloused hands stroke down my skin, undoing my pants and pulling them down. "It's not fair," I say. "I want to see your body too." And I mean it, Koki has always been attractive to me. I've always enjoyed kissing him and touching him, lately though, I want to spend forever with him.
Koki is not only my best friend, he's my love. I'm in love with the frail boy with a gentle voice and mean features.
"Ah! More~" I moan out as I feel his tongue lick a ring around my entrance, I wriggle to feel more of that sinful muscle of his and cry out when it's pushing into me.
"Koki~" I pull at his hair and mewl, I can't do much else than call him name and moan. His tongue feels so good inside of me, and a while later I realize his cock feels even better.
"Kame, you're so skinny. It's beautiful." He leans down to kiss my nose softly and holds my headboard as he rocks slowly against me. I smile and grasp his hips, slowing him down.
Because this will be the last time I ever have sex with Koki.
Koki is going to die next month.
I shiver as I come into his hand and tremble at the feel of his seed pouring into me. He pulls out with a groan and pants next to my ear.
"Kazuya, be my lover." He whispers in the silence of the room, I say yes.
Afterall, who can say no to a dead boy walking?
===
It's been about a week since Koki and I finalized the relationship between us, if possible we've been ever more inseparable. I practically live at Koki's now, my mother understanding since he's going to die soon.
I cry at night when he's sleeping.
I don't want Koki to die.
"Koki, I want you to recover." I say one day, in the midst of the blistering heat. We're both shivering underneath the thin spring blanket, no meat on the bones to warm us with.
"No, Kazuya. I'm perfect now, I don't want to get fat again." He says, not looking away from his phone. Scrolling down his dash board covered in razor blades and skinny people. I get offended by his statement because I'm still a few KGs bigger than Koki, but I know it's just his disease speaking.
Because Rex* has a voice of his own.
"Koki, I want you to live. I can't lose you." This makes him look up at me, with a happy glint in his eye. He's been waiting for me to say this, he's been waiting for years to hear it.
"Kazuya, what are you saying?" He tries not to grin and fails, I giggle and crawl onto his lap and kiss his gaunt little face.
"I'm in love with you, Koki. I can't live without you." He smiles wide and I can't resist him then, devouring his tongue and neck.
I don't need food when I have Koki's skin, lips, tongue, cock. I am surviving off of Koki.
===
The emergency room is white and bright, eyes not staring at you because everyone is sitting in here for a bad reason.
So I cry freely.
Koki was admitted this morning after his brother found him slumped over his couch, unconscious.
His heart has given out on him, after so many years it stopped beating.
They tried to resuscitate him in the ambulance, to no avail. Koki was gone. My lover, my best friend, was dead.
"Kamenashi Kazuya-san?" A nurse called my name and I followed her back to a examination room. "The doctor will be with you shortly." I nodded and laid back on the plastic-covered gurney.
I was checking into recovery.
Koki's last words flooded through my mind as I drifted off to sleep in the chilly room.
"I want to see you from wherever I'm going Kazuya, so you must get better."
===
*: Rex is the 'pet' name for anorexia in males, whereas Ana is the one for females.
A/N: thank you for reading this super depressing and shitty sequel. maybe I'll follow up and check in on Kazuya sometime. maybe not, who knows. but I've been thinking about this fic for a while and I had to resolve something >.< thanks for reading~