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[januaryarms]

if i could say one thing it would be:

you never cared or tried to understand why i love you.
it's not what you believe.
you're too concentrated on you. your selfish towards me.
you never gave me a chance.
you never even asked me why.
its my turn to be selfish.
because i can't pretend what happened, didn't happen.
like you can.
...
like you care.
i'm not talking about love now.
there are people you effect in life.
you can ignore them, sure.
but you shouldn't.
rivers of tears. man hours of brain time.
spent on what?
i'm sure you think i'm stupid.
but......i'm sure i know i'm real.

i'm done feeling stupid for loving you.
i don't want you anymore.
because you never wanted me in the first place.
this is not pity. this is the truth.

i'm still here, but...you never were.