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There was a time in my life when all i wanted to do was add what i thought i was missing. I thought i should have a boyfriend, bigger boobs, and birkenstocks. The last item is a tip-off that i was around seventh grade. I now have a boyfriend, who i am totally in love with and grateful for, the birkenstocks are now at goodwill, and apparantly it was not God's will that the boobs come my way.
But at that point in my life, i was totally focused. I had a passionate relationship with God, my only career/school goal for the next 6 years were decided by the State..... i had a definite direction.
I was gangly and totally embarrassed about having crushes, but that girl is who i think of when i think of who i am.... her good qualities are the ones i'm desperately trying to exhibit again. Focus. Dedication. Direction. Purity... and mostly that passion for God. It sounds so corney outside of a youth group, but that relationship with God defined and brought out the very best parts of me.
I was so eager to change. I want to feel like i'm doing everything in my power to be my best again. Everything is so competitive, and i don't even know what my goals are. career-no. major-nope. outfit- couldn't say. When does waiting for the right answer just become procrastination?
But at that point in my life, i was totally focused. I had a passionate relationship with God, my only career/school goal for the next 6 years were decided by the State..... i had a definite direction.
I was gangly and totally embarrassed about having crushes, but that girl is who i think of when i think of who i am.... her good qualities are the ones i'm desperately trying to exhibit again. Focus. Dedication. Direction. Purity... and mostly that passion for God. It sounds so corney outside of a youth group, but that relationship with God defined and brought out the very best parts of me.
I was so eager to change. I want to feel like i'm doing everything in my power to be my best again. Everything is so competitive, and i don't even know what my goals are. career-no. major-nope. outfit- couldn't say. When does waiting for the right answer just become procrastination?