I'm Afraid, To Sleep- Because Of What Haunts Me

[jannliss]

I am afraid.

Afraid that I will never stop
talking myself
into
and out of
things
emotions
decisions.

Afraid that I don't have what i need
to care for
and bandage
the wounds that heal too slowly.

Afraid I will never be happy with
what I have
who I am.

Afraid to feel
the same pain
the same joy
anything.

Afraid that no matter what I do, everything turns out the same.

Too afraid to do anything at all.