I Don't Like Steroids.
So I know, it's been a couple of days. I'm sure you've all been impatiently waiting the results of my damn jaw... that is, if anyone even reads this anymore.
Well, it's still stuck. Of course. The muscle relaxers did nothing except make me really dizzy, and the super-ibuprofen with steroids only made me retain a lot of water and break out all over. I feel like crap. I feel like I'm swelling to the point that I'm just going to explode any minute. Not to mention I still feel dizzy.
I don't like Steroids.
Matty went home today - I miss him. We went job hunting for him on Wednesday, not much success as of yet, but he got a lot of applications filled out. He plans on making those exciting phone calls on Monday - I want everyone out there to send positive thoughts his way as he continues to try and find a new job in Towson.
I find myself worrying all the time. About everything - I'm turning into my mother. I feel like I need reassurance, yet I'm given reassurance all the time. Matty is constantly telling me "Everything will be ok, you have nothing to worry about, I will do everything I can to make this work". My parents have been more than helpful... financially and emotionally. My friends have been supportive the whole way, letting me know that I am surrounded by people that love me and care about me. Yet I'm still not satisfied. I mean, I'm happy in all my relationships, Matty, my family, and my friends. It's not that at all. But I am worried. I am worried that something awful is going to happen and pull me away from the people I love.
Why do I worry about these things? Especially after I am told time and time again that I have no reason to worry? I feel lost. Someone help. Please?
Well, it's still stuck. Of course. The muscle relaxers did nothing except make me really dizzy, and the super-ibuprofen with steroids only made me retain a lot of water and break out all over. I feel like crap. I feel like I'm swelling to the point that I'm just going to explode any minute. Not to mention I still feel dizzy.
I don't like Steroids.
Matty went home today - I miss him. We went job hunting for him on Wednesday, not much success as of yet, but he got a lot of applications filled out. He plans on making those exciting phone calls on Monday - I want everyone out there to send positive thoughts his way as he continues to try and find a new job in Towson.
I find myself worrying all the time. About everything - I'm turning into my mother. I feel like I need reassurance, yet I'm given reassurance all the time. Matty is constantly telling me "Everything will be ok, you have nothing to worry about, I will do everything I can to make this work". My parents have been more than helpful... financially and emotionally. My friends have been supportive the whole way, letting me know that I am surrounded by people that love me and care about me. Yet I'm still not satisfied. I mean, I'm happy in all my relationships, Matty, my family, and my friends. It's not that at all. But I am worried. I am worried that something awful is going to happen and pull me away from the people I love.
Why do I worry about these things? Especially after I am told time and time again that I have no reason to worry? I feel lost. Someone help. Please?