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i need to go.
somewhere. anywhere. i need a vacation or an expedition.
i am getting sick of myself and the mundane chores that has become my life. i am falling into a rut and thinking that i just need to 'get by'. i am failing to realize that this is my life.
fuck.
and although i am single i wasn't as upset about valentine's day as i thought i was going to be. valentine's day was never really a big deal for me, why should you appreciate your loved one on one specific day? i think it means so much more if there were no expectations. but whatever.
i know there are people that love me. and i got amazing cookies from my parents so that makes everything a little bit better. :) and also, i like these moments of single-ness (eventhough i say i hate them). i am really not all that jealous of people that have relationships (i just miss kisses and cuddling). i don't have time for a boyfriend. i have a life. i like flirting with random people and daring myself to make eyes at people on the street. i like making fun of all the mushy stuff that shawn does for emily because above all they are cute, i have to admit that. both of those people are so fucking adorable i can't stand it. i just need to learn how to love being single. and that's slowly happening. slowly.
i am sick of people lying to me (including myself).
winter changes me into someone i hate. but february is a short month. and then march comes with spring break. and then april is hopefully going to be beautiful. and then school ends, and then summer. and then my life begins to get more intense...sort of.
somewhere. anywhere. i need a vacation or an expedition.
i am getting sick of myself and the mundane chores that has become my life. i am falling into a rut and thinking that i just need to 'get by'. i am failing to realize that this is my life.
fuck.
and although i am single i wasn't as upset about valentine's day as i thought i was going to be. valentine's day was never really a big deal for me, why should you appreciate your loved one on one specific day? i think it means so much more if there were no expectations. but whatever.
i know there are people that love me. and i got amazing cookies from my parents so that makes everything a little bit better. :) and also, i like these moments of single-ness (eventhough i say i hate them). i am really not all that jealous of people that have relationships (i just miss kisses and cuddling). i don't have time for a boyfriend. i have a life. i like flirting with random people and daring myself to make eyes at people on the street. i like making fun of all the mushy stuff that shawn does for emily because above all they are cute, i have to admit that. both of those people are so fucking adorable i can't stand it. i just need to learn how to love being single. and that's slowly happening. slowly.
i am sick of people lying to me (including myself).
winter changes me into someone i hate. but february is a short month. and then march comes with spring break. and then april is hopefully going to be beautiful. and then school ends, and then summer. and then my life begins to get more intense...sort of.