What a week!
This week Tina is back in Brunswick for spring break and is leaving on Sunday. So this is about my week (mostly with her). This week is all a blur which means no specific dates.
It started out as it sometimes does: Tina gave me a call and told me that she was going to be here for a week for vacation. Well I thought that was pretty cool news. I figured that we'd see each other a bit, like most of her vacations. She said we should hang out and I agreed.
So early this week we hung out a bit with Ben, played videogames, and watched "It's the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown". That was all fun. After we were all done I walked Tina out to her car and she gave me a little hug. We said good-bye and that was it.
The next night I had a band concert at Mt. Ararat's Orion center, an excellent concert hall with beautiful acoustics. I saw Ben and Tina there which was to be expected because she had expressed interest in coming and Ben needed a ride. After I was done I quickly said hi. They both said that they liked the concert and Ben even said, "That's the best I've ever heard the band sound." Which is awesome. I told Ben to wait for me to gather my stuff. Apparently he didn't hear me because when I emerged from the gymnasium they weren't there. "Oh well," I thought, "I'll see Ben later. And Tina? She has so many friends she'll probably be busy the rest of the week." Boy was I wrong.
Getting back from the concert I went on the computer because I was a bit bored I checked my live journal and saw that she had left a message on it. It said that next time she wanted me to kiss her... I didn't know what to think. We're just good friends. So what's the problem? Good friends kiss all the time...don't they?
I went on AIM and who was on but Tina! We talked for a bit before she revealed to me that she liked me (I didn't know what to think about this new information). At least it explained that spontaneous comment. We talked longer about what I think about her and I asked her questions like "What does this mean? and Are you asking me to go out with you?" The answers as I remember them were basically: I think you're awesome and I've always liked you. and No.
So at this point I don't know what to think. She likes me but doesn't want to go out with me. I was a little relieved with the answer to the second question. I mean she's 1. in a college far away and older than me
2. even if she did want to I would be very uncomfortable with it because she has had much more experience and as I remember rounded the bases quite a few times. So I asked her about her comment and she said that she wants us to have fun together and that if we ever kissed it really didn't mean anything.
The next time I saw her was the next day. She came over and helped me study for various tests and quizzes I had the next day. It was pretty fun talking and I learned all the stuff I needed to know. So after we finished studying we went upstairs to the kitchen. I was planning on giving her a smooch and saying bye, but of course it became much more complicated than that. We ended up locked in a meaningful kiss. We said bye and I went downstairs to think.
"I didn't intend it to be like this. So why did I let her do it? Why did I go with the flow instead of breaking off when I felt comfortable ?" I thought about this for a while and then came up with an answer that sounded logical: I wanted to make Tina happy. Then the more I thought the more I realized that I liked it and that go me confused so I went to bed.
The next evening she came over and went in the hot tub. We talked but nothing happened until she was about to go home. She gave me a quick kiss on each of my cheeks. This is what I wanted, no passionate confusing kisses. She would pick me up for dinner and swing dancing at the High School the next day.
We went to Sam's in Cook's Corner and split a pepperoni pizza. Then realizing we were going to be late for the instructional part we went quickly to my house so I could change and get the cheesecake for the silent auction. Arriving in the cafeteria (where it was happening). We danced and had a good time. I saw Whitney and Katherine there and danced with them both. Also Katelin and Carolyn but Tina was definetly the best at dancing. She's gone contra dancing and all sorts of stuff. We left early to go somewhere. Tina had me close my eyes and we went to this huge field where we could see the stars and full moon perfectly. She was cold in a sweater so I held her close to try to keep her warm. We talked a bit about stuff and then came the second kiss. This time wasn't too different than the last, just in a giant field. This time it didn't seem so wrong. Is this bad/good? I cannot tell.
We came back to my house and she came in to listen to some music. I went to walk her out to her car when my mom comes into the kitchen and very rudely drags me away (not literally). I doubt she understood that that was probably the last time I'd see her before the All-State concert and her school's summer break.
If anyone has theories, ideas, or just comments I'd love to hear them because right now I need all the help I can get deciphering this eventful week.
It started out as it sometimes does: Tina gave me a call and told me that she was going to be here for a week for vacation. Well I thought that was pretty cool news. I figured that we'd see each other a bit, like most of her vacations. She said we should hang out and I agreed.
So early this week we hung out a bit with Ben, played videogames, and watched "It's the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown". That was all fun. After we were all done I walked Tina out to her car and she gave me a little hug. We said good-bye and that was it.
The next night I had a band concert at Mt. Ararat's Orion center, an excellent concert hall with beautiful acoustics. I saw Ben and Tina there which was to be expected because she had expressed interest in coming and Ben needed a ride. After I was done I quickly said hi. They both said that they liked the concert and Ben even said, "That's the best I've ever heard the band sound." Which is awesome. I told Ben to wait for me to gather my stuff. Apparently he didn't hear me because when I emerged from the gymnasium they weren't there. "Oh well," I thought, "I'll see Ben later. And Tina? She has so many friends she'll probably be busy the rest of the week." Boy was I wrong.
Getting back from the concert I went on the computer because I was a bit bored I checked my live journal and saw that she had left a message on it. It said that next time she wanted me to kiss her... I didn't know what to think. We're just good friends. So what's the problem? Good friends kiss all the time...don't they?
I went on AIM and who was on but Tina! We talked for a bit before she revealed to me that she liked me (I didn't know what to think about this new information). At least it explained that spontaneous comment. We talked longer about what I think about her and I asked her questions like "What does this mean? and Are you asking me to go out with you?" The answers as I remember them were basically: I think you're awesome and I've always liked you. and No.
So at this point I don't know what to think. She likes me but doesn't want to go out with me. I was a little relieved with the answer to the second question. I mean she's 1. in a college far away and older than me
2. even if she did want to I would be very uncomfortable with it because she has had much more experience and as I remember rounded the bases quite a few times. So I asked her about her comment and she said that she wants us to have fun together and that if we ever kissed it really didn't mean anything.
The next time I saw her was the next day. She came over and helped me study for various tests and quizzes I had the next day. It was pretty fun talking and I learned all the stuff I needed to know. So after we finished studying we went upstairs to the kitchen. I was planning on giving her a smooch and saying bye, but of course it became much more complicated than that. We ended up locked in a meaningful kiss. We said bye and I went downstairs to think.
"I didn't intend it to be like this. So why did I let her do it? Why did I go with the flow instead of breaking off when I felt comfortable ?" I thought about this for a while and then came up with an answer that sounded logical: I wanted to make Tina happy. Then the more I thought the more I realized that I liked it and that go me confused so I went to bed.
The next evening she came over and went in the hot tub. We talked but nothing happened until she was about to go home. She gave me a quick kiss on each of my cheeks. This is what I wanted, no passionate confusing kisses. She would pick me up for dinner and swing dancing at the High School the next day.
We went to Sam's in Cook's Corner and split a pepperoni pizza. Then realizing we were going to be late for the instructional part we went quickly to my house so I could change and get the cheesecake for the silent auction. Arriving in the cafeteria (where it was happening). We danced and had a good time. I saw Whitney and Katherine there and danced with them both. Also Katelin and Carolyn but Tina was definetly the best at dancing. She's gone contra dancing and all sorts of stuff. We left early to go somewhere. Tina had me close my eyes and we went to this huge field where we could see the stars and full moon perfectly. She was cold in a sweater so I held her close to try to keep her warm. We talked a bit about stuff and then came the second kiss. This time wasn't too different than the last, just in a giant field. This time it didn't seem so wrong. Is this bad/good? I cannot tell.
We came back to my house and she came in to listen to some music. I went to walk her out to her car when my mom comes into the kitchen and very rudely drags me away (not literally). I doubt she understood that that was probably the last time I'd see her before the All-State concert and her school's summer break.
If anyone has theories, ideas, or just comments I'd love to hear them because right now I need all the help I can get deciphering this eventful week.