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[janitrix]

so. i'm a fucking idiot.
and i don't even know what's going on anymore.
it's like i'm always fucking pissed about something, and i love ted.. more then anything. but somehow i'm a bitch to him all the time. it's like i get irritated over nothing and then turn into this nasty super bitchy bitch. and it sucks. When i feel it starting, there's just something inside me that doesn't want to let go of that little insy bit of shit that just pissed me off, so it drags on and that is TOTALLY FUCKING UNNECESSARY. I SUCK a lot. shit i hate this. i'm sorry ted for last night, & i know everything is okay now, but still i wish i had an off button, or maybe a gun. i've been trying to make it better, but somehow it isn't working. everyone fucking knows i'm a cunt.

sorry if that was too personal for a public post.

teds at work, and i'm at his house bored about to take a gay survey thingie. okay

thirteen random things you like:
01) my friends
02) teddy
03) listning to good music LOUD
04) my sister/mom
05) texas hold 'em
06) watching movies and passing out with you
07) smoking the pot
08) taking pictures
09) sleeping in
10) bottled water
11) garys house for band practice
12) pauly shore
13) black people

twelve movies:

01) spun
02) basketball diaries
03) Edward Scissorhands
04) empire records
05) bio-dome
06) how high
07) wet hot american summer
08) legally blonde
09) Kill Bill 1 & 2
10) fight club
11) flowers in the attic
12) anchorman :the legend of ron burgady

eleven good bands/artists:

01) sublime
02) jurassic five
03) rilo kiley
04) jellyfish
05) jason mraz
06) incubus
07) the beatles
08) hellogoodbye
09) mos def
10) presidents of the united states of america
11) close to home/velcro love machine

ten things about you:

01) middle name: thiel, silent h
02) i'm in love
03) i'm also a fucking cunt
04) i'm folding socks for teds mom
05) i'm addicted to nicotine
06) i don't really drink
07) i love the color kelly green
08) i can roll a nice philly
09) my dog is blind
10) i'm a vegetarian 3 years running

nine good friends:

1) ted
2) gary
3) matt
4) kat
5) kiki
6) greg
7) pat
8) bj
9) actually i don't really have any good friends. kiki's good (in bed.. ohhhohohoohohhhhh)

eight favorite foods/drinks:

01) bbq tofu fries
02) salad
03) burritos
04) strawberries/fruit in general
05) veggie subs
06) cheese+crackers
07) spring water
08) fresca

seven things you wear daily:

01) class ring/ the one ted gave me
02) my jeans
03) flipflops
04) gauges
05) makeup
06) t-shirt
07) the necklace you made me =O)

six things that annoy you:

01) drunk silly people
02) meat
03) cops
04) me
05) my hair
06)everything/nothing

five things you touch everyday:

01) my bf
02) cigarettes
03) my face
04) the computer
05) my bong

four shows you watch:

01) family guy
02) law & order
03) stupid mtv shows
04) food network/animal planet

three celebrities you have a crush on:

01) will ferell
02) johnny depp who doesn't
03) ethan embry

two people you'd like to kiss

01) kiki
02) nope, can't say i can think of anyone else

one person you could spend the rest of your life with:

01) the person i'm thinking of probably doesn't want to spend their life with me because i suck, so i'll have to go with katryn