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obviously if you read my last entry, and the last part to it, you would see that i hate myself- and in a minute i would change. so i have a question...but first- you said that you think i still love you. now the question: well how can i love anyone,when i don't even love myself. better yet: how could anyone possibly love me. why didn't you just drive away. it would have solved so many problems. i sometimes wish that people would just leave me and not come back because then...like it was said in uptown girls..."You're lucky that you were mad. See when you're mad you don't miss people and if you stay mad, its like you never knew them at all. That way you don't have to feel sucky about it..." they could all leave...i could be mad- and stay mad. he left us...and i've stayed mad...and for 12 yrs and the 6 yrs i've known why he left, i've been mad- and i haven't missed him....i just don't know...