you think that was the worst thing you could say?
i just want to say thanks to all of you for being so supportive.
but a special thanks to steve.
i have been waiting 7 months to here that. 7 months waiting for him to grow the balls to tell me himself that he doesn't care about me anymore. i think he got the wrong idea when i messaged him. it wasn't an attempt to start a relationship again, it wasn't because i want to go on a hot date or ride in a fast car. i tried every scenario i could think of just so i could get this out of him, just so i could upset him enough that he would finally blurt it out.
i'm over it, i am. i defintely am not upset anymore, i don't cry anymore. the only time i do is when i try to get an answer out of him and he blows me off. for 7 months i have been starving for closure. some type of reassurance from him that it's over and thats it. because i know that it is. i know that things will never be the same and i'm ok with that. i don't want to be with him anymore. yeah things were fun, but they sucked too. i know how i feel, but i wanted to hear how he felt from him other wise i would always be wondering. and i don't want to live my life like that.
i mean, did he think i actually suggested hanging out together because i thought it would be fun? i KNEW it wouldn't be because i had a goal for it. i had a personal agenda and that was to help myself by getting an answer. it was all i wanted, it's the reason i bother him, it was what i need to take that final step. and it finally worked.
i am so happy right now, i feel like screaming!
i am forever indebted to the person who brought this to his attention.
thank you.
thank the fucking lord.
but a special thanks to steve.
i have been waiting 7 months to here that. 7 months waiting for him to grow the balls to tell me himself that he doesn't care about me anymore. i think he got the wrong idea when i messaged him. it wasn't an attempt to start a relationship again, it wasn't because i want to go on a hot date or ride in a fast car. i tried every scenario i could think of just so i could get this out of him, just so i could upset him enough that he would finally blurt it out.
i'm over it, i am. i defintely am not upset anymore, i don't cry anymore. the only time i do is when i try to get an answer out of him and he blows me off. for 7 months i have been starving for closure. some type of reassurance from him that it's over and thats it. because i know that it is. i know that things will never be the same and i'm ok with that. i don't want to be with him anymore. yeah things were fun, but they sucked too. i know how i feel, but i wanted to hear how he felt from him other wise i would always be wondering. and i don't want to live my life like that.
i mean, did he think i actually suggested hanging out together because i thought it would be fun? i KNEW it wouldn't be because i had a goal for it. i had a personal agenda and that was to help myself by getting an answer. it was all i wanted, it's the reason i bother him, it was what i need to take that final step. and it finally worked.
i am so happy right now, i feel like screaming!
i am forever indebted to the person who brought this to his attention.
thank you.
thank the fucking lord.