Dec 03, 2002 05:26
I'm finding it hard to understand why I'm here. The change was something I can't cope with one day normal teenage girl next a vampire with a soul but still that craving to feed off of people and then just a simple girl again. I liked it, the blood. I know I did and this is what's making me so confused about myself.
Just when I thought I finally had control its all taken away from me by a spell. Something from the underground. I wish I never knew about the hellmouth and everything it holds. Why can't I be the naive little girl all over again?
I don't know who to talk to about it. Maybe Spike will understand. He's gone through a huge change and he seems like the only one that will listen.
Maybe he'll teach me some english punk attitude and I'll be able to not care about anything.