Too long since my last blog
It's been a while since my last blog hasn't it..
I'll start by mentioning how very unfit I am. I thought couch to 5k might be a good start but I'm incapable of sticking to a plan so I went out and did a bit of a plod once, went too hard at it and it made my hip hurt and then a few days later I got ill and it all ground to a halt again. I don't think running is good for me anymore.. I'd still like to be able to do it occasionally though, and I get frustrated when my body won't do as it's told. A sitting down job for which the commute is a two step walk across the landing isn't doing my figure a lot of favours and it's a tough and time consuming job and I have literally stopped exercising. It shows!
I've also recently had dealings with the breast clinic which turned out to be nothing sinister but had me worried for a while. I've reduced my HRT dosage and now have days where I can't think properly and I seem to have annoying twitchy/prickly feelings in my feet at night. I bloody hate getting old but I guess it's preferable to the alternative.
Work has been utterly mental lately. There is way too much to do and not enough time, or indeed enough people to do it and I feel guilty for taking the weeks holiday I had scheduled when I'm not actually in Spain as I had planned but, I desperately needed the break so took the time off anyway. We, that is the bloke and I and his two teenagers, have had a few soggy days in Devon this week but it was a poor substitute. Had we have gone last week it'd have been a totally different experience :/
Love life wise, the bloke finally dropped the L bomb... it only took him three years! We still live in separate houses with no plans to alter the situation. Part of me is OK with this but sometimes I just want to curl up with him when he's not around.. Positive, having separation means we rarely fall out.. If he pisses me off, I just come home! Negative, running a household paying bills and paying for home maintenance when I'm not making full use of it seems a bit unnecessary, another negative, previously mentioned absence when I want a cuddle :/
I also now own two cars. I bought a 2ltr VW Scirocco earlier in the year, with full leather interior and ridiculously low mileage for a VW and was totally in love with it until a good friend told me he was selling his MR2 so now I have a little 2 seater sports car too. Both are worth more than I paid for them so I'm calling it an investment and using that to justify my obvious indulgence.
This morning I had an interview. Since I'm on annual leave, I almost didn't go. I had done little preparation other than looking up the company on the net. However, I had an interview for a position within my current business a few weeks ago, so used all the Q&As I'd prepped for that. This afternoon I was offered the job. The pay increase is more than 20% of my current salary (but 20% of shit is still a bit shit). I'm both excited and terrified but I feel these feelings may be normal for the situation. I'm getting rather good at recognising that my emotions are normal and experienced by everyone and not to panic. When I look back on how I was a few years ago I feel enormously proud of my progress.
If I could just lose about half a stone I could almost say I was happy..