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[janezaartherad]

JESUS!!!!!! I really feel like offing myself!!!! If I had the balls.... I still probably wouldn't do it... I'm small... a coward...

I wish that I wouldn't be so goddamn timid all the time... I wish I could spit on people and tell them to fuck off... but anytime there is a stench of bitch about me... people get overly pissed... like they're sick of me being a bitch... even though I hardly ever am...

Sometimes I just wish I was cool... that someone out there wished they could be me... that would be rad... Mark and all his friends talk about all these girls that they went to high school with and they fawn over them saying how they wish they could have a piece of them... no boys talk that way about me... I know there are people that feel the same... but it doesn't feel like there is anyone...

And when I have something to fucking say I just can't say it because I'm too fucking small to speak my mind...

I wonder if anyone knows how much that sucks...

I can't do anything I want because I'm to much of a coward...

I really think I shouldn't breed... I wonder if cowardness is a birth defect... sometimes it feels like one...

I know this post took a emo turn right away... hello all!