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Will came and crawled into my bed at exactly 10:10 this morning . and that is where we stayed until threeish. and it was really nice. and i feel a lot better. ...
i'm gonna go to work tonight. and sell tickets.. and earn my 5.15 an hour minus taxes. and i'm gonna go to class on Monday. and i'm gonna study. and when i make my two As, i'm going to invite all of you to kiss my ass. and i'm gonna embrace my mediocrity because it is so beautiful to me. and in the words of weezer "i write these stupid words and i love every one, waiting there for me, yes i do."
and i am a fucking USEFUL human being.
i don't need vast amounts of livejournal comments to convince me of that.
a woman i know works with sexually molested children, children impregnated by their fathers, children who will never be able to have children of their own because of reconstructive surgery.. she said last night, and i quote, "you would not believe how many kids are molested in this city"
and that makes my head hurt. but it also makes me realize that there is way too much craziness out there to be a whiny little bitch about stupid shit, especially when i have SO MUCH. and if being capable of realizing that is what living in a fantasy world is, so fuckin be it. i guess "reality" is driving around in your fucking SUV and spending hundreds of dollars on underwear. right?
yea, i could go around pulling people out of line, stripping them down, and letting them know every thing that's wrong with their pathetic little lives, but i don't. i don't need to. and i'm grateful.
i'm gonna go to work tonight. and sell tickets.. and earn my 5.15 an hour minus taxes. and i'm gonna go to class on Monday. and i'm gonna study. and when i make my two As, i'm going to invite all of you to kiss my ass. and i'm gonna embrace my mediocrity because it is so beautiful to me. and in the words of weezer "i write these stupid words and i love every one, waiting there for me, yes i do."
and i am a fucking USEFUL human being.
i don't need vast amounts of livejournal comments to convince me of that.
a woman i know works with sexually molested children, children impregnated by their fathers, children who will never be able to have children of their own because of reconstructive surgery.. she said last night, and i quote, "you would not believe how many kids are molested in this city"
and that makes my head hurt. but it also makes me realize that there is way too much craziness out there to be a whiny little bitch about stupid shit, especially when i have SO MUCH. and if being capable of realizing that is what living in a fantasy world is, so fuckin be it. i guess "reality" is driving around in your fucking SUV and spending hundreds of dollars on underwear. right?
yea, i could go around pulling people out of line, stripping them down, and letting them know every thing that's wrong with their pathetic little lives, but i don't. i don't need to. and i'm grateful.