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i had never had tequila before, will and two people we work with came over last night with enough to get us all naked. hehehe. they are such great kids and it's nice to hang out with people from work because everything feels equal and for once i don't have to be the one who doesn't know anyone. i burned my finger on a black & mild. and then i guess tequila can make you emo-angry too, because i recall being a pissed off little Mexican near the end. today i have a couple of tender places from knocking into shit. and my hand shows where i punched a wall. i enjoyed myself. i have a very wonderful boyfriend and i am proud to be a laidback individual who is secure enough in her relationship to think that it is fucking hilarious and really really hott that we all made out. alcohol with good people is good. you can take off all your clothes and fall over silly and everyone understands, nobody questions. and today has just been extremely good. work and "Touch of Glass" and pizza and tv and yea sex was what made today and that is a pretty damned good Friday night. i feel really comfortable in my skin lately. and a little more sexier, not quite as ugly. my boyfriend touched my face and it was okay. these days i am learning how to just be fuckin' A. i'm busting through some really ugly walls that formed inside my brain over a decade ago. like a fuckin mongolion, i will shine and be brilliant and strong.