Go Big or Go Home
No one ever says, "go small and go home!" The funny thing is that so many of us live in that space. It is a comfortable place to be. I'll fly under the radar and stay home, because I know what to expect there and it works for me.
I know this because I am currently trying to GO BIG and it is not comfortable, I don't know what to expect and even more frightening to me is wondering if I will measure up to the new expectations others will have of me when I go big. I know that I could be small, take care of my own family in my own little sphere and maintain that status quo. I know that if I did that I could raise great children and it would be a wonderful thing.
Yet I feel inside the desire to raise AMAZING children who have no fear of going big. Children who know that everything that happens in life is a direct result of themselves. We are the creator of our lives and we can create anything that we want to. Unfortunately, I don't completely "know" that in the center of my soul. I still doubt myself. I don't ever want my children to doubt. I have even doubted God, and I am happy to say that I trust him implicitly now.
I still cower in fear and worry for brief moments on a daily basis, but I always feel the spirit pull me back to that place of trust. I hear/feel the whisper, "I know that it seems like it is all going to come crashing down around your ears, but it won't before it is finished. Hold on. Endure. It is in His hands, and everything He does eventually turns into AMAZING!" So I breathe in and out, I dig in my heels, I get a tighter grip on life and I HOLD ON. Let me be honest here. I, myself am not going big... I'm just finally trusting Him enough to let him take me to BIG and make me into BIG! Creating the ME I really am, the ME I am meant to be, the ME I want to be. The very same ME that scares the tar out of myself, because I think she just might be more awesome than I can even comprehend! Then what?
That what doesn't even matter, because in the future... when I'm that version of myself that question won't even be a question. I won't be scared of anything!
I know this because I am currently trying to GO BIG and it is not comfortable, I don't know what to expect and even more frightening to me is wondering if I will measure up to the new expectations others will have of me when I go big. I know that I could be small, take care of my own family in my own little sphere and maintain that status quo. I know that if I did that I could raise great children and it would be a wonderful thing.
Yet I feel inside the desire to raise AMAZING children who have no fear of going big. Children who know that everything that happens in life is a direct result of themselves. We are the creator of our lives and we can create anything that we want to. Unfortunately, I don't completely "know" that in the center of my soul. I still doubt myself. I don't ever want my children to doubt. I have even doubted God, and I am happy to say that I trust him implicitly now.
I still cower in fear and worry for brief moments on a daily basis, but I always feel the spirit pull me back to that place of trust. I hear/feel the whisper, "I know that it seems like it is all going to come crashing down around your ears, but it won't before it is finished. Hold on. Endure. It is in His hands, and everything He does eventually turns into AMAZING!" So I breathe in and out, I dig in my heels, I get a tighter grip on life and I HOLD ON. Let me be honest here. I, myself am not going big... I'm just finally trusting Him enough to let him take me to BIG and make me into BIG! Creating the ME I really am, the ME I am meant to be, the ME I want to be. The very same ME that scares the tar out of myself, because I think she just might be more awesome than I can even comprehend! Then what?
That what doesn't even matter, because in the future... when I'm that version of myself that question won't even be a question. I won't be scared of anything!