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I went to the coast with Melody this weekend...I wish I hadn't come home. I realized that Melody may be the only person in my everyday life that doesn't irritate the Hell out of me. There's all this negitivity around me and no body seems to be alble to just enjoy life, and other peoples. I mean the next person who makes fun of me for the things that make me passionate about life is gonna get punched in the face. i don't think anyone realizes how miserable and pointless my life would be without my horses. I'm sorry that I need more than just my boyfriend or my family to make me happy. People suck. My horses are honest, do you know what my horse does when I cry? he nuzzles my face leans his head over my shoulder and tugs on my ponytail. Sometimes he licks my face because my tears are salty. It's the most honest and sweet gesture. he doeesn't know I'm upset and he doesn't try to fix anything he's just there, he always is. No body else in my life is just there for me like that. I need someone to be there for me, I mean, is it so much to ask? I'm there for all my friends, but as soon as I need the favor returned they all disappear. I am so miserable all the time. I hate it.