May 29, 2010 13:57
It's cancer.
They're going to refer me to an oncologist so that I can talk with her about treatment options, but the tumor originated in the joint of his jaw and it's growing rapidly, and they don't know that there's much I'll be able to do beyond managing his pain and discomfort. Because of where the tumor is, surgery is pretty much out. I'll have to talk with the oncologist to find out whether any other treatments would be appropriate for him, or if they would do more harm than good and just make him feel awful all the time. I can't believe I even have to think about this. This shouldn't be happening.
He's asleep in my lap right now, purring happily like nothing whatsoever is wrong. He has cancer.
This hurts so much. My poor Ivan.
ivan,
sadness