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Minus the parental-unit conflict and the lack of play days, I`m fine.
I`m seriously contemplating whether or not I should just let go of the whole parental strictness and what not. It`s been the same old arguement for the past 4 years between them and me, and no matter how much I try, it`s not going anywhere. They always seem to think that I`m lying to them when in reality, I`m not. Because I talk to humans outside of my household, they think I`m going out and committing to things like sex, drugs, and rock and roll. The irrational strictness is killing me because it`s obviously not letting me live. Friends in places like the city seem to me like they got it easy with the whole "going out" thing. Acquaintances and good times don`t even seem like a problem to the parental guidances. I just wish they`d let me be, sometimes. It hurts me knowing they don`t trust me when all I wanna do is live and learn.
I`m rolling up into a ball. To get things off my chest, I took a Bremerton city bus for the first time in 13 years. Felt independent for a little. I was safe and finer than ever.
Now, the lack of play days is gettin` up on me. This whole summer has been a work and work vacation. After summer school is done, I only got 2 weeks of summer left. I`m hoping to spend it well, starting off with the Rodeo.
I need to get out my house, get out my block and go see somethin`. Go do somethin`. I need to travel the world.
I feel like I need to be independent now before I never learn how and end up living at home for the rest of my life. I`m not even trying to grow up fast, I just wanna live and learn. Peas.