OK...I Do Believe An Explanation Is Due....
Before I start on the main topic of my entry, I just want to say that that Michele, I got your comment via E-mail. The site was being a pain so I didn't see it on my "comments" section. I do appreciate what you said, so for that reason I'm going to try and explain waht I did and why I did it.
For starters, letting go is hard, and it's not any easier when one sees the objects of hes/her anger pretty much everyday. I was fine over the summer, and people found me quiet pleasant to be around. Now I'm back at school and it's harder then ever.
For the second point, this is my journal, and I can write in it whatever I choose. It is everyone else's choice to read it, or to pass it by after reading a few lines. I aplogize for hurting people's feelings, but it's the truth and it's how I feel. I need a place where I can vent, and this one just happens to be it. If what I write bothers you, then please pass it by. I will not be offended.
Thirdly, when it comes to friends, I don't expect anything but someone to be there whether the times are good or bad. I don't want anyone to bow down to me. That is not the right way to go. I try to be there for those I care about no matter how hard it is. I don't consider myself a good friend, but then again, I'm ALWAYS putting myself down. Yes, I SUCK AND NO ONE WANTS ME AROUND. What else is new? If I'm too hard to be around, then please do us all a favour and leave. I have been alone for a long time and this is not going to be all that hard to adjust to. I just hope to get used to it and to accept it.
Fourthly, as I have stated, I'm the first one to criticize myself. So ther's no need to say to me to look within myself. I know I have faults, I just hope that people can accept it. However, it seems that every time I become depressed, everyone just leaves. If that means that I push people away, then be it. Those who are true friends won't leave. So, if I bother you, then leave. I'm not holding you hostage and forcing you to be my friends.
On the last note, I'd like to apologize to Kerri for being hurtful. It's not your fault that I'm upset and unhappy, but I do feel hurt by your actions. I guess that's all I have to say on that one.
Before I go, I'd like to say, that if I bother you, please let me know, and you are free of all your ties with me.
Later chickies
For starters, letting go is hard, and it's not any easier when one sees the objects of hes/her anger pretty much everyday. I was fine over the summer, and people found me quiet pleasant to be around. Now I'm back at school and it's harder then ever.
For the second point, this is my journal, and I can write in it whatever I choose. It is everyone else's choice to read it, or to pass it by after reading a few lines. I aplogize for hurting people's feelings, but it's the truth and it's how I feel. I need a place where I can vent, and this one just happens to be it. If what I write bothers you, then please pass it by. I will not be offended.
Thirdly, when it comes to friends, I don't expect anything but someone to be there whether the times are good or bad. I don't want anyone to bow down to me. That is not the right way to go. I try to be there for those I care about no matter how hard it is. I don't consider myself a good friend, but then again, I'm ALWAYS putting myself down. Yes, I SUCK AND NO ONE WANTS ME AROUND. What else is new? If I'm too hard to be around, then please do us all a favour and leave. I have been alone for a long time and this is not going to be all that hard to adjust to. I just hope to get used to it and to accept it.
Fourthly, as I have stated, I'm the first one to criticize myself. So ther's no need to say to me to look within myself. I know I have faults, I just hope that people can accept it. However, it seems that every time I become depressed, everyone just leaves. If that means that I push people away, then be it. Those who are true friends won't leave. So, if I bother you, then leave. I'm not holding you hostage and forcing you to be my friends.
On the last note, I'd like to apologize to Kerri for being hurtful. It's not your fault that I'm upset and unhappy, but I do feel hurt by your actions. I guess that's all I have to say on that one.
Before I go, I'd like to say, that if I bother you, please let me know, and you are free of all your ties with me.
Later chickies