The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
I've decided to make a dream journal and record and analyze my dreams. Not that I sleep that well anyways, so unfortuantely I can't record much but I'm stil vastly intrigued none-the-less...and yes, I'm that bored. Isn't it odd how one can be so bored and yet have so much to do? That's the odd state I find myself in recently. I think things will get much better once all this moving and graduation nonsense stops.
Graduation and disneyland will take place this thursday.. I'm very excited to say the least. I'm sure nostalgia and sadness will hit at some point in time. Today at lunch the played all the cliche' grad songs and I found it ironic that all of them are sad. Why are you sad, you should be happy.. we're moving onto bigger and better things!
So for the most part things have been going well but I'm having a slight inferiority complex with a certain person. I just feel like she's far surpassed my place in this person's life and that I can no longer begin to compare. It's kind of harsh realizing that someone really doesn't need you any longer even though you desperately need this particular someone. I also know that the other essential (people) in his life would much prefer her. That also makes things difficult.
This would be the time to just have faith in the higher power but it's hard. I'm to needy and selfish.I want everything to work out the way I want it to right now. But then I know that's not the way it's supposed to be right now and I try to avoid acting upon these rash notions. I suppose distance and time will have to result in some sort of solid conclusion and I will just have to wait and see. Sit back and enjoy the ride~