its been a long time (cencored version)
(yeah, i wrote an entry last night, but was asked to take out certain details.)
i haven't updated this since the spring break started it's like 2 weeks later...
DRAMA WENT DOWN, not a big surprise. things were okay between me and melanie the first couple days at her place in woburn. we just watched a couple movies and independently did research for papers. i actually got a lot done for my psych paper...but then shit hit the fan. it was just feelin weird, she was just making strange comments and asking loaded questions and being intense as usual. keep in mind we had to drive back to northampton on wednesday (the 19th) for a court appearance. but things got too fucked up, especially the night before, so i fucking booked reservations for the cheapest (ghetto) motel i could find--like $35 a night for wednesday through saturday night. mel was pissed.
so the next day/a few hours after our argument, we drove down to the hampshire county court in northampton. ha ha, it was actually funny at first, cause when you go in, first you have to go through security (you go through a metal detector and they search your bags) Anyway, so i handed over my purse and the cop pulls out the whacked out looking piece i had just made the night before... oops, i totally forgot =P luckily i hadn't smoked anything out of it, therefore they couldn't do anything about it ...so i just grinned and tried not to laugh (later he commented "that's some strange plumbing you've got there.) yeah, so we were at court from 8:30am until 1pm. (sooooooo drawn out)
anyway, i can't get into the details. so i'll shut up about the court-related shit.
anyway, i thought we were ready to go at like a quarter past noon and that she only had to sign a form, but that ended up taking half an hour. yeah, and we got totally lost getting to the motel cause i still don't fucking understand these fucking toll booths that shoot up every fucking 3/4 of a mile. and then mel and i started bickering again, cause she was tired and i was really stressed about not making it to the motel at 1pm, when i told kevin i'd be there. i was really looking forward to seeing him so it was frustrating that we kept driving in circles and shit.
bla, anyway, we got there at like 1:20 or 1:30, i forget, and he was so nice about it...awwww. and then there was the awkwardness of having the three of us standing there while i got my luggage out of the car. it was just weird putting kevin through that, but he was cool and didn't make a big deal out of it. still, the last time they saw eachother was the night/morning he saw/heard her beating me and shit and she got arrested. (ha ha, and the cops went into my room just as they started watching the porn on my computer. tee hee *sigh*) bla, anyway, i looked and felt like shit, and i felt bad making kevin wait so much already, but i wasn't about to be gross for him either, so i took what was probably the quickest shower i've taken in years. so yeah, we did our thing and he left for work at like 4:30.
then i just relaxed, talked on the phone with jonathan i think, then flipped on the tube to CNN. the war had officially started. great. i was totally sleep deprived and ended up being engrossed for like 5 hours and then watched a couple stupid movies on HBO. bla, basically that's how the rest of my time was there. i just contemplated shit, talked on the phone, saw kev once more over the weekend, and took a taxi back to smith on sunday when the houses were open again. the taxi ended up being $50 fucking dollars!!! wtf!! yeah, so right now i have like not even a handful of change. sure, i just deposited a check for $100, but it'll take a week to clear probably since its a cali check and appearently they have a particular disdain for our people. blaaaaaas.
yeah so this week i was kinda sick =( i downloaded soooo much music this week and i skipped so many classes. well, it was really mostly wednesday, cause the night before, cristina came over at like 10pm and we drank and smoked (and i hadn't been drunk in over a month and i hadn't smoked since january!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) yeah, and i think i ate some old chinese food that had been in my fridge since before spring break =/ which might explain how gross i felt the next day. i felt relatively okay this morning though, and it was important that i go to my 9am psychopharm class cause we have an exam on tuesday, eek. there was another anti-war protest walk out today, which i think is so lame at smith cause i don't think a walk out at a small snobby all-girls private college does any shit except screw over the lesson plans for teachers. bla, but it contributed in my reasoning for not going to my 1pm class. i probably would have gone if it started at 1:30... ha! who am i kidding, hells no i wouldnof, har har.
o0OH!! and i talked to jono on the phone a lot. he's in the SF bay area for spring break right now. rarrrr, i miss him so much. i can't wait to go back to CA and see him and mac and everyone!!! mac and i are definitely gonna party it up in SoCal/at UC San Diego, woohoo!! and i'm also gonna deal with my credit shortage by taking classes at UC Berkeley, which i'm actually excited about (let's hope this good feeling lasts...)
bla, but i am also sad about leaving smith, oddly. the two smithies i am closest with are leaving. polly is transferring and cristina is taking junior year abroad at london. i actually have seen kevin a heck of a lot more than i've seen those two, though. shit, i'm hella sad about leaving him since i've gotten to know him this past month. its great and it blows at the same time. kevin is just an all around good guy, the type of guy i've always wanted to get my hands on and i didnt even really know it until know. my relationship with him is so much better than any other i've had...and the sex is fucking awesome, yet enticingly addictive as jonathan knows from talking on the phone ;)
yeah, kev was supposed to come over today at like 4:30. i was totally looking forward to it, but at around 3 i started to just get that 6th-sense feeling that something happened and he wouldnt be able to make it...and sadly, he couldn't drive up cause his truck is fucked up. i was/am really sad about it, but i mean, he was genuinly sorry about it and besides, it's not like its fun having to get your car fixed, not to mention footin the bill.
rarrr, i hope he can come over tomorrow, but i don't wanna get my hopes up. if/when he does come out, i wanna walk around campus with him a bit, as opposed to bringing him up to my room the second he gets here like i've done every time before (except once...) i mean, that's one thing i've gotta give smith. parts of the campus can be so amazing to walk around especially in the afternoon and during sunset. *sigh* maybe i could take him up by the pond by the swing. i haven't done that with anyone since my first semester here, with then best"friend" ani. r. hmm, funny how i've skipped my philosophy class like half a dozen times and she is in it too.... bla bla mrrrrr. -- yeah, slight bitter tangent. --- so yeah, then i'll bring kev back and we can watch my new DVD, The Boondock Saints =P *sigh* i wish he could spend the night. too bad he has to deal with all that parent crap with curfew and all the shizzy. he hasn't spent the night since, well, that first night =P i dont hold it against him though, i mean, he comes all the way out here which is beyond too nice of him. okay, i need to fucking shut up about kev, i sound like a stupid 14 year old girl and i fucking hate those little bitches.
okay, off to bed.
i haven't updated this since the spring break started it's like 2 weeks later...
DRAMA WENT DOWN, not a big surprise. things were okay between me and melanie the first couple days at her place in woburn. we just watched a couple movies and independently did research for papers. i actually got a lot done for my psych paper...but then shit hit the fan. it was just feelin weird, she was just making strange comments and asking loaded questions and being intense as usual. keep in mind we had to drive back to northampton on wednesday (the 19th) for a court appearance. but things got too fucked up, especially the night before, so i fucking booked reservations for the cheapest (ghetto) motel i could find--like $35 a night for wednesday through saturday night. mel was pissed.
so the next day/a few hours after our argument, we drove down to the hampshire county court in northampton. ha ha, it was actually funny at first, cause when you go in, first you have to go through security (you go through a metal detector and they search your bags) Anyway, so i handed over my purse and the cop pulls out the whacked out looking piece i had just made the night before... oops, i totally forgot =P luckily i hadn't smoked anything out of it, therefore they couldn't do anything about it ...so i just grinned and tried not to laugh (later he commented "that's some strange plumbing you've got there.) yeah, so we were at court from 8:30am until 1pm. (sooooooo drawn out)
anyway, i can't get into the details. so i'll shut up about the court-related shit.
anyway, i thought we were ready to go at like a quarter past noon and that she only had to sign a form, but that ended up taking half an hour. yeah, and we got totally lost getting to the motel cause i still don't fucking understand these fucking toll booths that shoot up every fucking 3/4 of a mile. and then mel and i started bickering again, cause she was tired and i was really stressed about not making it to the motel at 1pm, when i told kevin i'd be there. i was really looking forward to seeing him so it was frustrating that we kept driving in circles and shit.
bla, anyway, we got there at like 1:20 or 1:30, i forget, and he was so nice about it...awwww. and then there was the awkwardness of having the three of us standing there while i got my luggage out of the car. it was just weird putting kevin through that, but he was cool and didn't make a big deal out of it. still, the last time they saw eachother was the night/morning he saw/heard her beating me and shit and she got arrested. (ha ha, and the cops went into my room just as they started watching the porn on my computer. tee hee *sigh*) bla, anyway, i looked and felt like shit, and i felt bad making kevin wait so much already, but i wasn't about to be gross for him either, so i took what was probably the quickest shower i've taken in years. so yeah, we did our thing and he left for work at like 4:30.
then i just relaxed, talked on the phone with jonathan i think, then flipped on the tube to CNN. the war had officially started. great. i was totally sleep deprived and ended up being engrossed for like 5 hours and then watched a couple stupid movies on HBO. bla, basically that's how the rest of my time was there. i just contemplated shit, talked on the phone, saw kev once more over the weekend, and took a taxi back to smith on sunday when the houses were open again. the taxi ended up being $50 fucking dollars!!! wtf!! yeah, so right now i have like not even a handful of change. sure, i just deposited a check for $100, but it'll take a week to clear probably since its a cali check and appearently they have a particular disdain for our people. blaaaaaas.
yeah so this week i was kinda sick =( i downloaded soooo much music this week and i skipped so many classes. well, it was really mostly wednesday, cause the night before, cristina came over at like 10pm and we drank and smoked (and i hadn't been drunk in over a month and i hadn't smoked since january!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) yeah, and i think i ate some old chinese food that had been in my fridge since before spring break =/ which might explain how gross i felt the next day. i felt relatively okay this morning though, and it was important that i go to my 9am psychopharm class cause we have an exam on tuesday, eek. there was another anti-war protest walk out today, which i think is so lame at smith cause i don't think a walk out at a small snobby all-girls private college does any shit except screw over the lesson plans for teachers. bla, but it contributed in my reasoning for not going to my 1pm class. i probably would have gone if it started at 1:30... ha! who am i kidding, hells no i wouldnof, har har.
o0OH!! and i talked to jono on the phone a lot. he's in the SF bay area for spring break right now. rarrrr, i miss him so much. i can't wait to go back to CA and see him and mac and everyone!!! mac and i are definitely gonna party it up in SoCal/at UC San Diego, woohoo!! and i'm also gonna deal with my credit shortage by taking classes at UC Berkeley, which i'm actually excited about (let's hope this good feeling lasts...)
bla, but i am also sad about leaving smith, oddly. the two smithies i am closest with are leaving. polly is transferring and cristina is taking junior year abroad at london. i actually have seen kevin a heck of a lot more than i've seen those two, though. shit, i'm hella sad about leaving him since i've gotten to know him this past month. its great and it blows at the same time. kevin is just an all around good guy, the type of guy i've always wanted to get my hands on and i didnt even really know it until know. my relationship with him is so much better than any other i've had...and the sex is fucking awesome, yet enticingly addictive as jonathan knows from talking on the phone ;)
yeah, kev was supposed to come over today at like 4:30. i was totally looking forward to it, but at around 3 i started to just get that 6th-sense feeling that something happened and he wouldnt be able to make it...and sadly, he couldn't drive up cause his truck is fucked up. i was/am really sad about it, but i mean, he was genuinly sorry about it and besides, it's not like its fun having to get your car fixed, not to mention footin the bill.
rarrr, i hope he can come over tomorrow, but i don't wanna get my hopes up. if/when he does come out, i wanna walk around campus with him a bit, as opposed to bringing him up to my room the second he gets here like i've done every time before (except once...) i mean, that's one thing i've gotta give smith. parts of the campus can be so amazing to walk around especially in the afternoon and during sunset. *sigh* maybe i could take him up by the pond by the swing. i haven't done that with anyone since my first semester here, with then best"friend" ani. r. hmm, funny how i've skipped my philosophy class like half a dozen times and she is in it too.... bla bla mrrrrr. -- yeah, slight bitter tangent. --- so yeah, then i'll bring kev back and we can watch my new DVD, The Boondock Saints =P *sigh* i wish he could spend the night. too bad he has to deal with all that parent crap with curfew and all the shizzy. he hasn't spent the night since, well, that first night =P i dont hold it against him though, i mean, he comes all the way out here which is beyond too nice of him. okay, i need to fucking shut up about kev, i sound like a stupid 14 year old girl and i fucking hate those little bitches.
okay, off to bed.