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today, one year ago. suzanne lang passed away. she was a godsend, and taken too fast. she means everything to me. i remember, every day being long, and i was always hating the fact i never knew what condition you were in, if you were still struggling, or breathing on your own. you had so many dreams. and i just wish i could give you everything you ever asked for. im so greatful to have you. you were like my big sister. you were the only person that believed in me. and understood me. because im alot of the time, misunderstood. people have wrong perceptions of who i really am. suzanne was not just an amazing women to me but to anyone anywhere. always laughing, and always smiling. she was never one to give up. i remember going to cpk with her. and then she went through radiation so she wasnt allowed to eat spinich artichoke dip because of her kimo. so, she told me that when she made it through, we would go together and eat so much of it. when you died, i cant even describe how i felt. i never became so attached to someone like i was to you. you were always one to make me feel better, or calm me down, understand where im coming from, and i could tell you anything. theres so many people in life, that dont appreciate what they have. and the little you had, you still always kept up and running, shopping at amazing stores, buying gorgeous clothes, because of your amazing style, and way of life. you took life as it came. you dont deserve all that has happened to you. i wish i could just tell you goodbye, and let you know i think about you all the time. night and day. some things i keep to myself, because the only person i could ever talk to was you. when my friends would forget me, or betray me, you were always my friend. my big sister, my heart, my life, and my everything. meeting you was one of the best things for me, and in my life. i wish i could let you know this is how i feel about you. it hurts so bad knowing i cant just pick up a phone and call you or know youll be at my house, when i get home from school. or when we went to dinner with shanna, and we didnt care who was looking at us. we just laughed. That was us. Youll always be in my heart, and ill always remember the good times. and the way you were. atleast i know you'll always be with me in spirit. your my angel from above. thank you for always being there, and helping me up when i fell down. i loved you then, now and till forever. rest in peace Suzanne.