Mondays=blah!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes so today was actually a lot of fun!! I had studio art 1st and 2nd periods today and Katie, Andy and I danced to a bunch of '90s dance songs but mainly "What is love" and "Sandstorm".....both qually great songs. It was a lot of fun!!
Ok so last night I decided to call my first boyfriend's number that I have. I was calling and then I realized that it was like 10:30 and I was like...ohhh I shouldn't call!! Then this girl answered, I think it was his sister and she was like hello and I hung up on her. Then like 5 minutes later and this was the conversation: BJ-"Uh you just called me and hung up on me." Me-"Ummm...oh, yeah I think I had the wrong number." BJ-"Well who were you looking for?" Me-"Well I'm not really sure." BJ-"So you called this number and your not sure who you are looking for?" Me-"Right...yeah..." BJ-"Well, ok."
Yes so points for Jana on being a shy ass pansy pussy!! Seriously what the hell is wrong with me?? I mean I think it is actually pretty funny but come on now self get some balls!! SO she has called my cell phone 4 times already today....CRAZY MUCH????? I'll let you decide that.
So my ex boyfriend.....wait make that 5 times that BJ has called me ok now back to the other story......ok so Patrick my ex boyfriend (Gary was my first--just so no one gets confused)leaves for New York tomorrow because he is going to like a reform school or something up there....that was his punishment for getting arrested for assult and battery (sp?). Well, he was my first love and we have basically gotten back together 2 times and well I'm still not ready to say goodbye to him you know. I loved him...hell I totally still have feelings for him. I told my friend Daniel last night that I can't lose him. I mean that with everything I can't lose him and I won't. I don't want him to end up like Gary, you know never talking again or anything...loosing contact is a better explaination of what I don't want. Even though I've said bad, mean things about Patrick...the truth is I think I will always have feelings for him no matter how old I get-I will always love him and I don't know if I will ever get over him. That song from Garden State "I just don't think I'll ever get over you" totally explains how I'm feeling. I miss his voice, I miss his laugh, I miss his smile, I miss the way he would pop his jaw and make this clicking sound, I miss the way when we hugged we fit perfectly together, I miss the way his hand was so much larger around mine, I miss his smell, I miss his eyes, I miss the way he called me beautiful and the way his voice sounded when he would say I love you, I miss the way he would laugh at me and make fun of me for snorting when I laughed, I miss the way he respected me and I miss the way we could stay on the phone for over 5 hours and laugh about it when we got caught. I miss the way we were so different...we always had things to talk about and when we didn't it was totally cool and never awkward. (Ok that restricted number totally called me again!! I suppose I'll answer next time and be like what the hell do you want!!!!!!) I miss the way people would make fun of us and say we were like an old married couple because we new each other so well and our fights were little and lasted like 5 minutes.
Anyway, I'm just really down because I feel like I'm loosing the love of my life.........
Ok so last night I decided to call my first boyfriend's number that I have. I was calling and then I realized that it was like 10:30 and I was like...ohhh I shouldn't call!! Then this girl answered, I think it was his sister and she was like hello and I hung up on her. Then like 5 minutes later and this was the conversation: BJ-"Uh you just called me and hung up on me." Me-"Ummm...oh, yeah I think I had the wrong number." BJ-"Well who were you looking for?" Me-"Well I'm not really sure." BJ-"So you called this number and your not sure who you are looking for?" Me-"Right...yeah..." BJ-"Well, ok."
Yes so points for Jana on being a shy ass pansy pussy!! Seriously what the hell is wrong with me?? I mean I think it is actually pretty funny but come on now self get some balls!! SO she has called my cell phone 4 times already today....CRAZY MUCH????? I'll let you decide that.
So my ex boyfriend.....wait make that 5 times that BJ has called me ok now back to the other story......ok so Patrick my ex boyfriend (Gary was my first--just so no one gets confused)leaves for New York tomorrow because he is going to like a reform school or something up there....that was his punishment for getting arrested for assult and battery (sp?). Well, he was my first love and we have basically gotten back together 2 times and well I'm still not ready to say goodbye to him you know. I loved him...hell I totally still have feelings for him. I told my friend Daniel last night that I can't lose him. I mean that with everything I can't lose him and I won't. I don't want him to end up like Gary, you know never talking again or anything...loosing contact is a better explaination of what I don't want. Even though I've said bad, mean things about Patrick...the truth is I think I will always have feelings for him no matter how old I get-I will always love him and I don't know if I will ever get over him. That song from Garden State "I just don't think I'll ever get over you" totally explains how I'm feeling. I miss his voice, I miss his laugh, I miss his smile, I miss the way he would pop his jaw and make this clicking sound, I miss the way when we hugged we fit perfectly together, I miss the way his hand was so much larger around mine, I miss his smell, I miss his eyes, I miss the way he called me beautiful and the way his voice sounded when he would say I love you, I miss the way he would laugh at me and make fun of me for snorting when I laughed, I miss the way he respected me and I miss the way we could stay on the phone for over 5 hours and laugh about it when we got caught. I miss the way we were so different...we always had things to talk about and when we didn't it was totally cool and never awkward. (Ok that restricted number totally called me again!! I suppose I'll answer next time and be like what the hell do you want!!!!!!) I miss the way people would make fun of us and say we were like an old married couple because we new each other so well and our fights were little and lasted like 5 minutes.
Anyway, I'm just really down because I feel like I'm loosing the love of my life.........