[FIC] TOO REAL TO END
Title: Too Real to End
Author: janale6
Pairing: junseung
Rating: G
Genre: angst? Not really orz
Word count: 574
Disclaimer: The last part (im not spoiling you anything :p) is actually based from KRY's Let's Not.
A/N: trying my might to write angst. But this is fail. orz. This is way too far from what I was imagining junseung is parting. I’m too happy right now that I can’t make angst. Sorry :(
Summary: Even if you try to press rewind, even if you hold onto me crying, I was the one who said “No,” and bid our farewell.
A/N: i was listening to OC's Not Yet. it's a sad song. maybe it'll work with you to listen to it while reading this :) enjoy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BduGwidWFP0
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Knowing that this will be his last moment with Hyunseung whom he loved so much…
The last moment he’ll be able to touch him but maybe not the last moment he’ll see the fragile boy cry…
Junhyung thought in the midst of the silence, coherent thoughts, words to say to Hyunseung, words that he’s sure he won’t regret saying.
“I love you so much that it hurts, but I need to let you go.” He said with his eyes fixed on the ground, knowing if their eyes meet, he’ll break down.
“I don’t get it. What’s the matter?” Hyunseung turned to Junhyung in complete confusion, he placed his hand on his lover’s chin, trying to make the younger boy look at him and explain to him with all honesty “What are you trying to say? Junhyung~ah…”
Junhyung took Hyunseung’s cold hand off his face and let go if it.
“I don’t deserve you and your love” He said softly but loud enough for Hyunseung to hear.
“What are you talking about?! Who do you think deserves me more than you do! Please stop this nonsense bullshit!”
Hyunseung’s voice got louder as his tears made its way on his pale cheeks. It never stopped flowing; it has no plans of stopping at all.
They know very well how real their promises were, as well as their love, so real that it made wonderful memories, so real for it to end.
“I’m a coward man…” Junhyung continued, with his hands wanting to wipe his lover’s tears, but no, he shouldn’t, he can’t.
“I don’t have the confidence to protect you forever and I can’t give you the happiness you need.”
“Stop! Please…”
Junhyung knew how Hyunseung couldn’t handle it. He collapsed on his feet while covering his ears with his small hands. “I don’t want to hear your lies.” He sobbed harder.
I wanted to embrace you but I couldn’t do that because I know I was going to cry too.
“I’m sorry” He bit his lips at these words; he gave him a handkerchief before he turned his back at the poor boy. He doesn’t want to look back; he doesn’t want to look back no matter how hard it was.
“We loved each other, but why are we breaking up like this? You told me that you couldn’t live without me, that you were going to die without me."
Hearing this from Hyunseung, Junhyung paused but didn’t look back. Tears started forming in his eyes; his voice was shaky when he said “Words that I don’t even mean.”
He then left before Hyunseung could see him cry. But at that time, He wished to feel Hyunseung’s hand on his wrists. He wanted to hear him say “Please stay”; He wanted Hyunseung to hold him back.
I didn’t know it was this hard walking alone without you; my heart is so stuffed up.
It’s so hard because thoughts of you roam in my mind. Even if I regret our breakup I can’t do anything but give you our farewell. I left a note in that handkerchief I gave you, I couldn’t just leave you alone there coz it hurts me more.
/Don’t cry in pain counting the time that’ll pass,
Don’t miss a foolish love that’s already passed,
Meet someone who loves you so much that they can’t go a day without you..
Please, I hope that you’ll be happy.
Let’s never meet again…
-Junhyung/
A/N: i already have Hyunseung's POV about this. but i'm planning on posting it tomorrow. how d'you like my angst? :|
Author: janale6
Pairing: junseung
Rating: G
Genre: angst? Not really orz
Word count: 574
Disclaimer: The last part (im not spoiling you anything :p) is actually based from KRY's Let's Not.
A/N: trying my might to write angst. But this is fail. orz. This is way too far from what I was imagining junseung is parting. I’m too happy right now that I can’t make angst. Sorry :(
Summary: Even if you try to press rewind, even if you hold onto me crying, I was the one who said “No,” and bid our farewell.
A/N: i was listening to OC's Not Yet. it's a sad song. maybe it'll work with you to listen to it while reading this :) enjoy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BduGwidWFP0
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Knowing that this will be his last moment with Hyunseung whom he loved so much…
The last moment he’ll be able to touch him but maybe not the last moment he’ll see the fragile boy cry…
Junhyung thought in the midst of the silence, coherent thoughts, words to say to Hyunseung, words that he’s sure he won’t regret saying.
“I love you so much that it hurts, but I need to let you go.” He said with his eyes fixed on the ground, knowing if their eyes meet, he’ll break down.
“I don’t get it. What’s the matter?” Hyunseung turned to Junhyung in complete confusion, he placed his hand on his lover’s chin, trying to make the younger boy look at him and explain to him with all honesty “What are you trying to say? Junhyung~ah…”
Junhyung took Hyunseung’s cold hand off his face and let go if it.
“I don’t deserve you and your love” He said softly but loud enough for Hyunseung to hear.
“What are you talking about?! Who do you think deserves me more than you do! Please stop this nonsense bullshit!”
Hyunseung’s voice got louder as his tears made its way on his pale cheeks. It never stopped flowing; it has no plans of stopping at all.
They know very well how real their promises were, as well as their love, so real that it made wonderful memories, so real for it to end.
“I’m a coward man…” Junhyung continued, with his hands wanting to wipe his lover’s tears, but no, he shouldn’t, he can’t.
“I don’t have the confidence to protect you forever and I can’t give you the happiness you need.”
“Stop! Please…”
Junhyung knew how Hyunseung couldn’t handle it. He collapsed on his feet while covering his ears with his small hands. “I don’t want to hear your lies.” He sobbed harder.
I wanted to embrace you but I couldn’t do that because I know I was going to cry too.
“I’m sorry” He bit his lips at these words; he gave him a handkerchief before he turned his back at the poor boy. He doesn’t want to look back; he doesn’t want to look back no matter how hard it was.
“We loved each other, but why are we breaking up like this? You told me that you couldn’t live without me, that you were going to die without me."
Hearing this from Hyunseung, Junhyung paused but didn’t look back. Tears started forming in his eyes; his voice was shaky when he said “Words that I don’t even mean.”
He then left before Hyunseung could see him cry. But at that time, He wished to feel Hyunseung’s hand on his wrists. He wanted to hear him say “Please stay”; He wanted Hyunseung to hold him back.
I didn’t know it was this hard walking alone without you; my heart is so stuffed up.
It’s so hard because thoughts of you roam in my mind. Even if I regret our breakup I can’t do anything but give you our farewell. I left a note in that handkerchief I gave you, I couldn’t just leave you alone there coz it hurts me more.
/Don’t cry in pain counting the time that’ll pass,
Don’t miss a foolish love that’s already passed,
Meet someone who loves you so much that they can’t go a day without you..
Please, I hope that you’ll be happy.
Let’s never meet again…
-Junhyung/
A/N: i already have Hyunseung's POV about this. but i'm planning on posting it tomorrow. how d'you like my angst? :|